THIS POST WILL BE ALL PHOTOS.

This picture was taken a long time ago, I dont even remember when!

My hairs becoming a mess, it always does when its becoming long lol.

Just randomly writing what pops out of my head right now, no point.

Ever since I didn't get to participate in Pumpfest, made a pact with myself to train harder. Who better to make a deal with other than yourself yea? Like seriously, I don't want to be bulky, but I sure want to be really strong. What to do, its a pre-requisite of becoming a good climber. With more training, there'll be more climbs, more climbs lead to better technique! So it all comes as a set, whoots. But obviously considering how we're all in JC and all, and how JCTs in like 1 1/2 more months, I have to strike a balance yea? Its been a rather frustrating month for me cause truthfully I know that I know how to do all th topics that were tested but still don't score for my tests. Yeayea I hear you people saying "How can you say you understand and yet not score?!" Well, that, I'm not sure myself. But I'm damn sure I know what I'm doing. Frustrating because this has always happened since I was Secondary One. Its like th feeling when you know a certain word and its at the edge of your tongue, but you just can't say it. Or like having a sneeze, about to blow only to get stuck up your nose. So close, yet so far. Hahaha. Oh well, I just have to find that magic moment where everything will click together. And you know whats the best thing? Teachers are worried. What kind of student enters TJC and fails. Damn, that ain't right. Too bad ah, thats life. All I can do is continue to understand and find that magic spark thats been missing.

However, a word of encouragement from my friend spurred me on when I'm on the brink of destroying things in my path. He said that he knew I could get my A's just that I'm not getting it. At last, someone that understands, how comforting. I hope I'll whoop ass for Promos. Wait, JCTs.

I realize that keeping my feelings in an air-tight cylinder in my heart is not very good for me, cause I know ONE DAY, it will burst. And when that day comes, I can't imagine. Theres just too much within myself. Nahh, I'm sure I''ll find more capacity to hold them in, can't risk letting them go. For now, I'm trying to change the way I am. You know? How I'm talkative and all, and it's for a greater good, not for any person or whatsoever, personal. I realize it's not very good for myself. Thank you for entertaining my ramblings for tonight.

I WAS OWNED!

TODAY. is the submission date for the first component of the dreaded and long drawn Project Work. Whats the first component you may ask, well, its basically the PRELIMINARY idea. Just a single idea, supposedly a preliminary one. Contrary to its title, I believe its anything but preliminary. What kind of preliminary idea of a project would require you to think of the possible methods of carrying out the project, a feasibile and manageable one, and it should be creative, innovative and not thought of previously? HOW IS THIS PRELIMINARY?! I'm sure I'm representing majority if not all the JC1 students who are also sitting for this very different form of examination. It has only been a few weeks since we began on the project and so many are already losing so much sleep. I shall freely express my opinions on Project Work and anyone is, and in fact encouraged, to voice out what they have in mind. Okay, you may say its too early to judge, but getting my facts and figures from my fellow friends, I can safely state that PW is already sucking our life away, agreed? Lets have a look. On average, one would sleep say at around 12? Thats after a typical day that possibly ends at 3. So obviously being teenagers, we would wander and saunter and whatnot, only reaching home at dusk or even later. So badabing badaboom, its already midnight. Feeling tired and not caring for the remaining work that we have, we sleep. So thats PROBABLY the average if not one of the light days that we may have. Here, we add PW into the equation. Suddenly, your days end later, your mornings remain the same, and best of all, your sleep gets shorter. From what I've heard, one would sleep at around 1 or 2? Is it true? Looking at the time, its already 1. My eyes grow dizzy and the keyboard seems far away. My Preliminary Ideas in my mail, waiting for printing. and the keyboard, screams in silence. I shall continue anoth.er day. Good, night.

I find Solace in God.
I find Happiness in Family and Friends.
I find Encouragement to carry on through their Words.
I find Insight from moments spent Alone.
I find Love from moments spent Together.
I find Awe in simple things in Life.

Clear in day-light, hiding in plain-sight.

The Three Waves will come thundering down before We meet the ending of our Existence to finally Leave to Live - Even a single Line may be too much for our feeble Minds to comphrehend.

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These past few days seem to have passed by strangely quickly. So much, so soon. Its like a hurricane just went through my life, though still keeping the essentials intact. Joy, satisfaction, sadness, disappointment, anger and emptiness all crammed into a period of a few days. The negatives seem to be overwhelming the positives, thank God it isn't. We shall take things in stride and strive to achieve higher the next time, we shall. For now, we shall just recover from our downfalls and reap lessons that will be essential to us. It is but a norm for us to be overwhelmed is it not? However, we refuse to succumb. We shall rough through this storm. We have seen changes in us, critical analysis of details in our life has led to this epiphany we are experiencing. For now, we shall but harbour on the anaesthetics of life and cling onto the fine yet unyielding strands of strength that still hangs from within us all.

Peace to You.

I'm supposed to be studying on the three main biological molecules in our body, enzymes and the enclosure of cells, but nahh, I think I'd rather blog, more engaging for my mind. Anyway I'll study while I'm in the bus and during breaks. Hopefully that'll suffice, lol.

I believe I have announced this before, but who cares

THERE'LL BE AN MCS PERFORMANCE THIS 25th APRIL THAT'LL INVOLVE A NUMBER OF JC'S IN A COMPETITION THATS GOING TO BE HELD AT my SCHOOL AND I'M PART OF IT, JUST LOOK FOR A POSTER ON FACEBOOK BY SEARCHING "SEMARAK TEMASEK"

there you go.

What is Time? That was the question that the people in KI had to write an 800 word essay on. A question worth pondering don't you think? Or not at all. Well, thats KI for you! A wise man once told me the physics behind how we exist eternally in the afterlife, and to keep it a secret. What an interesting night that was. Trust me, I'm not joking when it actually made sense when explained with Physics terms.

I think KI's quite cool, especially the topics and ideas that it revolves around. I think my exact words if I were beside you now would be :

"Its like something that makes you go Ohhh but secretly in your head you're saying What the Eff?!"

Without actual thought and effort, I have unconsciously completed all my homework for the weekend. All I did was said to myself that I would, and like a watch, the gears started clicking, and slowly but surely I did what I wanted, and tadaa, I HAVE TIME TO GAME.

Stand witness to the power of when one wishes to game.

I have become tired.
The long hours are finally catching up to me.
This unlimited source of energy is running low.
My eyes grow heavy as the days go by.
My spirit glows a little lesser.
I have become tired.

OMGG.
I have not updated for such a long time have I not.
alia diamond! :) [ ALIA THE GAY IS HERE BESIDE ME ]
Okay, lets look at what has happened in my life in the past few weeks yea,
Schools been gay, and is getting gay-er with P.W and what not, c'mon, EMERGENCY OR CONSERVATION?! No matter, it has been given and we shall just have to deal with it, TOO BAD AH THATS LIFE.

Climbings good too, finally got shoes! White Pearl Lace Ups, SIZE SIX. Uber small, but thats climbing shoes for you. My forearms growing, but holy shit, despite the gain in muscle mass and height, you know, you expect me to like gain weight or something right? But check this out, I LOST weight and now I weigh at an astounding and mind-boggling 44.5kg. Shocking isn't it? I knoww. Like HOLY SHIT siaaa. Mehh, what to do, just eat and train for now, we'll see what time has to offer.

Socially sound too. Like met people on a regular basis? Especially one (:
I'm looking forward for Speech Day 09, can FINALLY meet the people whom have gone to the other side of Singapore to continue their education. WHOO! :D

Other than that, nothing much has happened? OH WAIT, Im in a Malay Cultural Society, MCS, Mega event, thats happening this April, on the 25th. Im the M.C or maybe part of the Skit, but thats still in the shadows, so yea, if you wanna come, DO TELL ME YEA! I'm hoping you guys would though, can like reunion? Hahaha

Oh well, apart from that, nothing much? But I have a tendency to skip some things in my mind. So stay gay people.

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By the Time, verily, Man is in loss! Except for those who do believe and do righteous good deeds, and invites one another to the truth and invites one another to the patience.

HELLO

these are my friends, well except one of em yea, I do not know her, but the rest, yes,

BE ASTOUNDED PEOPLE.

TODAY, many interesting things happened.

I laughed till I cried, such a feeling, haha.
I felt a sense of relief and happiness surge into me.
I discussed mathematics excitedly with a friend, LOL.
I had a feeling of accomplishment.
I grew uneasy but chilled.
I settled my anger very quickly

and lastly,

I TRIPPED ON A CABLE IN MCCAFE, AND FELL ON ALL FOURS, CAUSING A LAPTOP AND MANY OTHER THINGS TO FLY. WHOOSH.

The Pimple has been conquered, FINALLY.
See, The Pimple is a route in my school.
Why The Pimple, you may ask. Its because it has many circular things jutting out, very similar to the pimples on a persons face, you know? Haha
Well, basically its a difficult route, I think?
Its called an overhang, you know, form th side, it looks like THIS /
Its like slanted around 30 degrees? So the pull of gravity gets stronger as you go higher.
As you go higher, your arms get weaker, your strength seeps out just when th going gets tougher. So yea, its tough.

AND I COMPLETED IT!
okay, didn't finish properly cause I fell, but WHAT TO DO, im still a noob, yes Apam?

The next challenge is The Mango. WAIT, don't react.
Weird name huh? Its cause the main obstacle in th route is this Mango-shaped tile.
Its smooth and you can't really grip it, called a sloper. When I got to it, I went OMGAWDDD lol
Its gay.
And I couldn't do it. So I shall try again next week. Maybe cause I was tired when I got to it. heh
So yea, Climbing Rocks :D

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Schools been good, should you wish to ask. Assignments still on time, still able to cope and understand the tutorials which are zooming by, Climbings been good and friends are good.
I hope school has been good for you guys too yea. You know, you may get pissed with stuff, or feel like its too much, but chill mon, as God said, I don't remember it clearly, but heres the gist of it, that He does not burden you with no more than you can handle. I'm not thinking straight right now, so I'm just gonna type out what comes to my mind.

Lets see.

Call, Dota, Sleep, Food, Enzymes, Chem, Wedding, Party, PW damn, Mango, March Holidays WHOO, Angry Brother, Maths, DAMN, Climbing, GP, Gain weight, I miss someone, time should stay still so that some of us may examine and assess the worlds current state, we are small in this huge universe, nightmares no longer scare me, misunderstandings can lead to a hell of a mess, my cough is getting worse, i think, holy shit, im getting darker, OMGG, and

goodnight!

I seem to have quite an imagination.


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Let us re-examine the story of Sleeping Beauty, you know, the one in Disney.
APPARENTLY, what we have been reading for decades is WRONG, a twisted version of the TRUTH.

Let me tell you the reaaaal story, here goes.

Once upon a time, there lived Princess. We shall not name her, cause I don't recall her name in the tale. She had the most stunning features in all DisneyLand. Her hair, as black as ebony, the skin, as fair as one can be, and her lips, as red as blood can be. Alas, no one is perfect. She was very unfortunate for she is as round as a pumpkin. Grostequely fat. She searched throughout the land for a way to shed off some weight, but to no avail. To add to that, her step mother had been very cruel to her! She forced her to vomit out her food in an attempt to stop gaining weight but once again, to no avail. Too disgusted to call her her step daughter, the step mother banished her into the woods! She ran and ran till her legs gave way and found a cave nearby. Dog tired, she slept, using leaves as her mattress and the earth as her bed.

When she woke up the very next day, she found seven stout but fit dwarves standing over her, their faces red as beetroot. Panicking, she tried to stand up, but realized she could not as she had been sleeping flat on the ground! Finally after a few minutes of trying, and perspiring through her dress, did one of the dwarves helped her up.

"What-cha doing her woman?!" Said the one who helped her up.

"I'm sorry! I didn't know this was your cave! I have been banished from my land, and could find no other refuge, please forgive me!" She begged on her knees.

Pitying for the beautiful princess, there invited her over to their cottage where they had prepared the most scrumptious of meals. The Princess's eyes almost popped out of their sockets when she saw the feast. Without wasting a second for thought, she chomped through the feast while the seven dwarves looked on, surprised. When she had satisfied her stomach, she lied down on the floor and once again, fell into a deep sleep.

The Princess was struck awake the next morning by the thumping of boots. With much trouble, she stood up and saw that the dwarves were going back to the caves. Not wanting to be left alone in the cottage, she snatched a pair of black worn boots and tried to catch up. When she finally arrived at the cave, long behind the dwarves, she saw that they had already started mining. Once again, not wanting to feel left out, she too started to mine. The hours seemed to go by so slowly, every minute an eternity of torment for her arms. Sweat dripped off her forehead in an endless stream. Not hearing any of them complaining or stop, she too did not despite her arms begging to stop. Finally, when the cave was filled completely with darkness, did the sounds of pickaxes being dropped echo across the walls. Caught in a frenzy to keep on mining, the Princess did not stop until the dwarves finally forced the pickaxe out of the hand and caught hold of her. As if she was a rabid animal, she started foaming at the mouth and eventually passed out.

Rays of sunlight blinded her and forced her eyes open. The Princess sat up, wondering what had happened. She was on a bed, with food prepared in front of her! As usual, she devoured it without a thought and fell back asleep. However, the next time she woke up, she found that her arms seemed lighter! "How is this possible!?" She thought. Only then did she realize how effective mining had been to shed off her fats. Astounded and excited at this new oppurtunity, she immediately went off to the caves, ready to mine again.

This continued for quite some time and she developed a strong bond with her fellow miners. They looked out for each other, helped her stop mining and even prepared for her food! In eternal debt to them, the Princess vowed never to binge ever again. The dwarves were so proud of her. Little did they know that the Princess had been bingeing behind their backs, unable to control her appetite after so many years. One day, the dwarves found out and were extremely disappointed with the Princess. In a flutter of rage, they agreed to never allow the Princess to mine ever again so that she will suffer forever as a fat person. With nowhere to hide her face, the Princess shut off the world and fell into a deep sleep, not intending to wake up and face reality ever again.

Seeing the Princess asleep, never ever waking up, sorrow and regret creeped into the little dwarves' hearts. As a gift, they created a gigantic glass coffin, so that they may forever see her beautiful features as she lay there, unmoving.

Somewhere faraway, a Prince hears of this and is love struck by the idea of a Princess sleeping forever in a glass coffin! He then embarked on a journey of years to find her. Back in the woods, the dwarves become aware of a strange phenomenon, the princess is becoming THINNER as the years go by! By the time the Prince arrived, the Princess had lost so much weight that she looked truly beautiful! ( except for the fact that she wore very over-sized dresses ) Holding a croissant in one hand, he lifted the cover of the glass coffin to give her a kiss. After staying dormant for so long, and unexposed to the smell of food due to the glass coffin, the mind kicked awake. Sending electrical impulses to her jaw in a split second, she did what was second nature to her, to CHOMP! Thinking that he had awaken the princess by kissing her, they happily agreed to marry each other and live happily ever after.

MORAL OF THE STORY : Lipids is an excellent energy storage molecule that is only assimilated once all glucose in the body is used up!

I WAS BORED IN TH BUS IM SORRY x)

HELLO WORLD!

Its been a while since I last blogged, and I apologize.

Tiring days, CCAs, Studying, kinda takes up a lot of energy.

Most of th time, I only eat and sleep at home, then wake up, go back to school!

Draining, but too bad, thats life, JC life.

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The week, has been good.

Still keeping up with my lectures and tutorials, having enough time to still have fun and joke around, still laughing, loads of that, teachers are not bad, friends many, and yea, alls good, whee.

Just came back from second climbing training. Not a glint of regret man, I love it. The feeling you get, when you reach the top, when your arms ache, when you see your friends reaching the top, the pain and sweat, its all worth it. Thank god todays a friday, if not, I don't think my arms would work as well tomorrow. I was in such a state that when I was trying to put toothpaste on my toothbrush, I ALMOST put facial wash. Hahaha

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I like Maths, it's fun. Frustrating, but satisfying.

Biology is pending, still a long way to go.

Same goes for Chemistry.

Economics, kinda like common sense, with a lot of jargons.

General Paper, I think I'm gonna like it, seems fun.

Malay, THIS YEAR AND NO MORE! So persevere, I shall.

Only concern is Project Work, considering the number of variables that can affect your grade and stuff, but I have faith, my class has potential, goodgood.

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HOHO :D

BACHK!

After a week of orientation at TJC then can I say something about it, can't be too early to judge, yea?

ORIENTATION HAD BEEN UBER FUN.
TJC just has a warm aura around it, you know? Like the whole school seems to be a part of a BIG family, despite the different houses and classes. You always see people like talking and laughing about, smiling and laughing. I think cause its orientation week? But we'll see. I bet this would change drastically when its during the exam period. But who cares, thats for later! Yea, back to the topic. Theres a lot of friendly and warm people there. They say hi and acknowledge you, and are crazy back when you're crazy to them! Hahaha, i think that applies only for me. The J2s seem nice, but i don't know them much, so we'll wait yea? I strongly urge those people out there who thinks that TJC is boring *COUGH COUGH SITI KHAIRUNNISA COUGH COUGH* to change your opinion, cause I've experienced it, though only for a short moment, and its not BORING, in any way!

DAY ONE:

Everyone seemed lost, not much interaction, everyones with their own school friends, I'm guilty as charged, heh. As we sat for three hours straight on our cold flat asses, we start to notice a few people here and there. In our heads "Ahh, these people are gonna be in the same school as me".
Got to know our groups and hence, all of us proceeded, clueless on what to expect. At first it was difficult for me, considering that most of the people in my OG had chinese names, but quickly, they got to know me, and vice versa. Thank god I have an outgoing personality or it would have been such a boring experience! And end of day one.

DAY TWO :

Day two was a far more exciting day. Though it started off with a really long and boring lecture by our VP, which was by far the only lecture I slept in, it really picked up the pace rather quickly as we went for our amazing race. OMG sia, it was damn fun! I think this was the reason why my OG got closer to each other, cause we had to work together and run together and do weird funny things together! Also because we started learning the MASS DANCE that day! HOLY SHIT SIAA I LIKEE :D

DAY THREE :

Highlight of the day was MASS GAMES. Damn it was fun. Got wet flour on our faces and in our mouth, played a human futsal, you know the table thingy, blowed balls to score, HAHAHAHA, and cheered like mad crazy people, yeah. Then there was CCA tryouts, didn't really have to try out cause i know im going to join CLIMBING.

DAY FOUR :

Ahh day four, thursday. THE SECOND BEST DAY! :D
The usual MASS GAMES & DANCE for the beginning part of the day, however I wasn't there cause I had rehearsals for O-Night, which was retarded. In a good way, lol. THEN THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY. Mass Dance at Suntec Fountain. HOLY SHIT IT WAS DAMN FUN I TELL YOU! We danced as a school, at SUNTEC! Around the fountain, a whole sea of red and patches of green here and there. Screaming, jumping and dancing. Such a wonderful scene! :D
We danced from 6-8 and at around 7 there, I got high on adrenaline and got crazy till like 9, really. Hahaha. Miraculously I didn't lose my voice despite all the cheering and singing and shouting and running. Tiring day, nonetheless DAMN FUN.

LAST DAY :

The highlight and finale of the whole orientation. The whole DAY was such a slow and mundane day, cause all we did was rehearse for our performance. However, once the clock struck 6.30, things got moving. O NIGHT, Ignite the INFI-NIGHT began. The performances were awesome, some mad me go :O seriously, while some were fair, but most were BAIK BAIK BAIK-BAIK!
THEN THEY CAME, the external band. First song was STARLIGHT by Muse, which was an excellent song to begin your performance with, cause everyone started jumping and running, and singing along. Such a FEVER. Out of the blue, the music stopped. Technical Difficulty. Despite that, the level of FEVER didn't drop a notch at all, everyone started cheering TOGETHER, everyone knew everyone elses' cheer and whoa, REALLY LOUD AND COOL. This lasted for around 10 minutes or more, and everyone was in the mood. Next song was an unknown song to me, but everyone else knew it. Followed by Zombie by the Cranberries! Omg, I got crazy, cause i love the song, and in the centre of the crowd, my voice rose above all, lol. Jumped around and ran around till like 11, omg such an experience. A memorable night.

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Apparently our batch is like ten times more enthusiasthic than the previous, yeah, so I'm delighted :D

I'll post pictures some other time cause they're not uploaded by my OGL, YET.

One interesting fact, the light for my new watch changes every day.

Monday - Dark Blue

Tuesday - Dark Green

Wednesday - Red

Thursday - Light Blue

Friday - Lime Green

Saturday - Purple

Sunday - ALL OF THEM FLASH IN A SECOND!

Coool or whaat :D

15 Hours eh (:

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE WORLD,

I am, from now onwards, a student of Temasek Junior College. God knows best, so yea, I'll just accept what he has given me. There are a few paradoxes here but I don't care. Though deep down, I am slightly saddened that I did not get into Raffles Junior College, but as my cousin always says, "Thats LIFE!". Indeed, Life it is. I will make the best out of this new adventure and hopefully learn countless of priceless lessons in my next step in education. To others, I bid you a merry and wonderful journey in your new environment! I sound like a sage.

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woo okay, just got back from the weekly friday night thing that Muhammad, Fadhil and I have. We went cycling today. Let me tell you where we went.

First stop - Tampines Mart
Second Stop - East Point

Third Stop - Temasek Polytechnic

Fourth Stop - Somewhere between TP and Ikea, at a field. BIG OPEN field

Fifth and Last Stop - IKEA

Okay no, Sixth Stop and Really the Last Stop - The Fitness corner infront of their houses.

We practically made one REALLY UBER huge round, from one edge of Tampines to the edge of Pasir Ris. Stopped at Simei and met Siti Khairunnisa awhile, you know, just meet up after some time. Then proceeded on to Ikea, which was surprisingly far from Simei. Surprise. It was tiring but had fun, couple of boys in little cute bikes cycling at night, screaming and shouting. Sounds like a nuisance, well, we were. But it was fun, so to hell... Then at Ikea, Muhammad wanted to get some Ice Cream so we stopped awhile, took a detour at the Toilet and this was what we did.

See lah, my friends. Hahaha

I'm tired to the point that typing this causes a headache. The keyboard seems so far, the clicking noise, so loud. Goodnight Gays.

BE ASTOUNED BY THE WONDERS OF SWENSEN'S EARTHQUAKE.

THIS. WILL. BE. A. MEME. POST. FOR. I. AM. BORED

Name: Ahmed Khalil Khan Son Of Mohamed Hapiz Khan Son Of Ali Khan Son Of Merwali Khan.

Birthday: 14th November 1992

Birthplace: Singapore

Eye Colour: Brown with Blue at th sides? Haha

Hair Colour: Dark brown

Height: HAHA not constant for now? Almost 1.7m i think

Right Handed or Left Handed?: Righty

Your Heritage: Daaamn. Pathan, Bugis, Jawa, Arab, Afghan and some more. haha

My Worst Habit: DISTURBING TH SHIT OUT OF YOU.

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

Shoe Size: ate

Pant Size: I have a small waist. 30

Parents Still Together?: Yeap

Shoes You Wore Today?: Havaianas!

YOURS

Your Weakness: Things I hold dear

Your Fears: Sometimes the dark. SOMETIMES

Your Perfect Pizza: A bit crusty, not too much tomato, a lotta BBQ stuffs, chicken and CHEESE!

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Own th next school i go to.

Your Most Overused Phrase In Instant Messenger: lol

Your Best Physical Feature: My Smile.
Your Bedtime: Depends, not a definite time.

Your Most Missed Memory: Playing with my brother and cousins in th toilet! HAHA

MY FAVOURITE

Colours?: Green and Orange

Food? : ROTI JOHN, KWAY TEOW and EGG PRATA. favouriteS

Animal? : Cats

Ice Cream? : Frosted chocolate malt

Candy? : Grape Mentos

Store? : Bee Cheng Hiang

Salad Dressing? : Mayonaise, I like Liquidefied Fats.

Actress? : I'm not sure, depends, ON WHAT? haha

Songs? : Disease - Matchbox 20 but changes with mood

Letter? : A

Number? : 3 26 13

Gum? : the one you buy in Malaysia!

Holiday? : THE END OF THE YEAR.

Season? : I love th sun thank you

Toothpaste Flavour?: Strawberry you know, the KODOMO one

Radio Station? : Not a radio person

Perfume? : Drakkar Noir

Scent Besides Perfume?: Shampoo haha

Body Part On The Opposite Sex? : Face!

FRIENDS AND LIFE

What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? : A Teacher

How Do You Want To Die? : While praying haha

FINISH EACH SENTENCE

Let’s walk on the: edge of the world

What a nice: ass ( FROM MY SISTER HAHAHA! )

Where did all the: high levels go?

Why can’t we: just go to heaven

Silly, little: BOY I AM YOUR FACHER

Isn’t it weird that: I eat so much and dont get weight? HAHA

Never Under Any Circumstance: would i eat human faeces. DAMN.

I wish: I lived in th past

Everyone has their: Gay times, yknow?

I am: YOUR FACHER

HAVE YOU EVER

Been In love? : Yea, am

Been to Juvie? : Dont intend to

Mooned Someone? : I dont understand th term MOON. hmm

Been Rejected? : Nahh haha

Ran Away from home? : I like my bed.

Picture your crush naked? : Thats just WRROOOONG

Skipped School? : I dont think so, skip halfway yea?

Thought about Suicide?: Wondered

Slept Outside? : COUNTLESS TIMES LA SIAA

Laughed so hard you cried: Often

Cried in school? : Yea omg

Thrown up in school? : Whoo yah

Wanted to be a model? : YEA HAHAHA underwear model

Cheated on someone? : BOOO

Done Something Really stupid that you still laugh at it today?: waitwait, YEA

Seen a dead body?: Almost every year

Been Bitched Out? : I'm not sure what this means

Drank Alcohol? : Nahh

Smoked: For the Record, NO.

Been on drugs?: Yea Panadol

Eaten Sushi?: No, but people keep saying its delicious, so I'll try one day

Been on Stage? : Mhmm

Gone Skinny Dipping? : ONE DAY ONE DAY HAHA

Shoplifted? : yeap, evil people i am

Been Drunk? : On Milo and Root Beer

Been called a Tease? : I belive so

Been beaten up? : Birthday bashed last year, in a Limo. lol

DO YOU

Swear? : Yea, you should hear Geng Apam while playing DoTA

Sing Well? : I'm not sure. but yea, to hell x)

Shower Daily? Daily is once a day, okay maybe sometimes.

Want to go to College? : GOING

Want to get married? : My life wouldn't be complete without it

Believe in yourself? : YEA NIGGA

Get motion sickness? : Nahh

Think You’re Attractive? : Im can't say, what do you think?

Get along with your parents? : Sometimes?

Like thunderstorms? : very nice

Play an instrument? : Im musically handicapped.

Own an iPod? : Ish, once, for a moment, but not anymore

Pray: Yes.

Go to Church? : Once or twice?

Sleep with a Stuffed Animal? : Nahh, but i do have a really big pillow lol

Keep a Diary/ Journal? : Do blogs count?

Dance in the Rain? : I'd just run around

Sing in the shower? : Ask my sis for an audio recording, HAHA

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke? : Pepsi

McDonald’s or BK? : Burger Kings.

Single or Group Dates? : Singlee, group would be like outing seh

Chocolate or Vanilla? : See my Mood

Strawberries or Blueberries? : Strawberries man

Meat or Veggie? : MEET

TV or Movie? : Moviee la, but you think I so rich ah?

Guitar or Drums? : Guitar

Adidas or Nike? : Adidas

Chinese or Mexican? : Mexican, th KFC Meltz like Mexican right?

Cheerios or Corn Flakes? : Corn Flakes, I still wonder how corn becomes that.

Cake or Pie? : CAKER

MTV or VH1? : MTV

Blind or Deaf? : Deaf

Boxers or Briefs? : Briefs. lol

CAN YOU

Do the splits: Thats painful. No

Write with both hands: Cann, but its disgusting when written with my left

Whistle: Sometimes yknow, but no

Blow a bubble: Yeap

Roll your tounge in a circle : Yeap

Cross your eyes : Its hurtss but yes

Walk with your toes curled : JUST FOR THIS, i tried, and yes, i can haha, and now my toes cramp.

Touch your tongue to touch your nose: WHOOSH, no

Dance: HAHA I THINK.

Eat whatever you want and not worry: Everytime I do

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON

You touched: Babar, this sounds wrong.

You Talked to on the phone: Sheila! (:

You Instant Messaged: Sheila

You Hugged: Zainul! Long time never see that fella

You yelled at: Babar

You played a sport with: BELEAF

WHEN WAS THE LAST

Time you laughed: A few hours ago

Time you cried: Ages.

Movie you watched: Chandi Chowk to China HAHA

Flavour of Gum you chewed: I think it was Grape

Joke you told : LAST NIGHT!

Song you sung: Just now haha

BELIEFS

Life on other planets: Eh, who knows

Magic: Hahaha yea, MAGICK

Love at first sight: That isn't love

God: Yes.

Satan: Yea

Ghosts: YEA! HAHA omg

Santa: that fat man lives in another dimension laa

Evolution: DO I LOOK LIKE I CHANGED FROM AN APE YOU FOOL

IN A GUY/GIRL

Fav eye colour: Brown (:

Fav hair colour: Natural

Short or long hair : Longg

Height: Not taller than me

Weight: Its not an issue

10 Random Facts about me.

1. I have africa on my chest
2. I sleep with my brother
3. I had a tooth in my forehead before
4. I'm dark while both my siblings are fair
5. I not yet 50kg
6. I didn't have normal kindergarten
7. My lips are slightly not aligned
8. My teeth are VER-SHING kinda white
9. I like Maths
10. I want to go to university

1. Who's the person that tagged you?
- Ahmed Haliim Khan

2. Relationship between you and her?
- He's My Brother

3. Three impressions of her?
- Fierce, easy-going and dominant

4. If he becomes your enemy, you will?
- not be at peace

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
- Lee, hello

6. Characteristic I like about myself?
- My good nature

7. Characteristic I hate about myself?
- How sometimes I don't think before I speak

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
- Mehh, where got hate one

9. What do people feel about you?
- I'm not sure, Hopefully its all good

10. Your crush? - she's a girl.

11. Pass this to 10 people: (most have done it, so i'm gna put whoever, you don't have to do anyway)

1. Sheila
2. Siti Khairunnisa
3. Muhammad
4. Nurdiyanah
5. Ahmad Husaini
6. Sharifah Ameera YOU GAY
7. Fadhil Alsagoff
8. Gerald CHEE.
9. Shahirah
10. Edna? haha

12. If 5 and 7 were together?
- Ahmad and Fadhil? HOLY SHIT sia.

13. Who does 5 like?
- I'll ask him, no promises

14. What colur does 9 like?
- Shah? I think purple? LOL random guess

15. Say something bout 8?
- He's my Class Manager for 4 years and he's good

16. Who is 2?
- My Bestfriend

17. Talk about 3.
- Muhammad, Hes a good guy, sometimes gay, but yea, he's nice. Embekk

18. Who is 10's best friend?
- EDNA? Lol, im not sure

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
- hahaha x)

20. What colour does 4 like?
- I think its green, eh?

21. Is 4 single?
- HAHA YEA GO FOR HER AH! HAHA x)

22. Your relationship with 1?
- Helloo (:

23. Are 5 and 6 best friend?
- i don't think they know each other, but can ah

24. 9's surname?
- Im not sure haha

25. 7's nickname?
- Dhil

26. Say something to 8.
- HEY GAY!

27. Say something to help 9.
- HAVE FUN BEING SEC 4 :D

28. Who do I admire?
- High Level In Malaysia

29. Where does 1 live?
- Tampiness

30. 10 of them know who you like?
- Most? x)

31. Say something to 6 when you see her.
- Okay

32. 10's spouse?
- Obama

Alright, its been awhile since I last updated. Didn't feel like updating

Well heres the rundown of what happened the last few days.

Go out with Muhd,

Go out with Sheila,

Go out with Siti and Sadiq and Su,

Jogging, Picnics, Go out some more.



Then yesterday involved the first two, and another one, and a different thing. Watch a Movie.

Hahaha. Watched Chandni Chowk to China. Hindustan with subtitles. A funny show, really. If you wanna catch a movie with a light feeling, just for th sake of laughing, and feeling different, watch this. Though th movie seems very shallow, theres quite a deep lesson in it. And as someone said, got message behind it, you know, like SBQ for SS one. hahaha. To be fair, its true.

There were so many funny parts I can't even remember em all. And the SONG. Man, it gets stuck to your head quite like the Nobody Nobody But Chou, but not as strong. And the Main Actress, Deepika Padukone, Depict-A-Pardoo-Cone. Haha. Yea, she's hot, REALLY. Go find an image of her on google if you think its just me.

The day ended unexpectedly fast, cause I had to rush home. Heh.
But it was fun while it lasted, haha.
SOMEHOW, not a single picture was taken. Of us, that is.

So many movies to catch in the following months, Underworld : Rise of the Lycans, Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen, Fast and Furious, Angels and Demons, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, X-Men Origins : Wolverine and gaylords more. What did I miss? And DAMN, so many coming out in MAY, Apam's birthday. Embekk

"Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings."

Bye gays.

It is 4 and I am bored.

Past few days had been eventful and fun, like on tuesday.

Went for Temasek JC Open House, was quite happening, in terms of atmosphere and all, but the happening people, the seniors were absent. Damn. Anyway got to meet a friend who wanted to see me after results. Farah Syirin's the name, and I'm sorry, didnt get to pass your message lol.

What was exciting was the activities there. For th past 3 years or so, my brother and I have always gone to open houses to ONE, meet the people there and most importantly TWO, to rockclimb. Like the people there wanted to play soccer, so it was my brother, me and 3 other graduates agaisnt the TJ school team. Yea then it rained so we just lepak. Got to rock climb after so long, three times in a row. Fingers hurt like cramped up like mad but it was fun hah.

Seems like a warm place.

After that went to muhammad's place and had a spur-of-th-moment picnic at Pasir Ris Park with Gerald and Liang Wei. Cycled there and enjoyed like th wind and all. Been a long time since we had that much of like free fun, haha. The wind was so strong when birds tried to fly they were virtually motionless! COOL! hahaha and muhammads sandwich got stolen by a crow. So to get revenge, we set a trap, which was unsuccessful beyond words.

Liangwei's face is PRICELESS. the wind was THAT strong, hahahaha

Then we proceeded to look for interesting things when th tide is low. HAHA! I found an indian goddess statue in the sand, was about to pick it up when liang wei said it could be cursed, lol.

Got bitten by a huge crab, YES A CRAB. poked a few anemones while liang wei and gerald were catching creepy crawlies in the sea, okay I was catching, they were keeping watch and collecting.
Muhammad was missing the action cause he had to settle some stuff, which was a LOT. Damn, me gerald and my other friend used to do this regularly in sec 2, like catch mudskippers and all, just for the fun of it. Haha, you guys should try it sometime, its fun, lol

Muhammad's spastic but we all love him x)

GOODBYE.

Helloo there
Let me share with you what made today such a delightful day for me. Well, firstly its because I received home-baked cookies from a friend! Haha, which was delicious "got famous amos texture" and secondly because of my results, which truthfully, I wasn't expecting. Well, I went crazy for approximately 5 minutes or more after I got my results before I let time catch up with me. Ask me

Well, getting on with the quiz from JR.

001. Real name → Ahmed Khalil Khan S/O M H K
002. Nickname(s)→ Mamat, Mat
003. Star sign → Scorpio
004. Male or female → Male
005. Elementary → White Sands Primary School
006. Middle School → Temasek Secondary School
007. High School → I'm not sure
008. Hair color → Brownish Black
009. Long or short → Short
010. Loud or Quiet → Loud
011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → Nope
014. Drink or Smoke? → Neither
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → Nah
016. Eat or Drink → Eat
017. Piercings → Nope
018. Tattoos → Nah

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ Yeap!
020. Been in a relationship → Yes.
021. Been in a car accident → Nah.
022. Been in a fist fight → Yea, interesting experience.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Never?
024. First best friend → Firdaus, in K2
025. First award → K2? I forgot what for
026. First crush → Once again, in K2, Hanisah lol
028. First vacation → PENANG!

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Sheila.
030. Last person you texted → Sheila
031. Last person(s) you watched a movie with → Sheila
032. Last food you ate → Food? Roti John!
033. Last movie you watched → Twilight.
034. Last song you listened to → Zombie - Cranberries
035. Last thing you bought → Chocolate Chip Cream Frappe
036. Last person you hugged → Sheila

FAVES:
037. Food → Disputable, between Prata and Roti John, and Nasi Ayam, okay Local food then
038. Drinks → Root Beer
039. Clothing → Shirt and Jeans
040. Books → Five People You Meet In Heaven
041. Musics → Disease - Matchbox 20, but It changes with my mood
042. Flower → Roses.
043. Colors → Green
044. Movies → So far, Lord of The Rings : Return of the King
045. Positions → 1st.
046. Subjects → Maths!

IN 2008..... I
047. [ ] kissed in the snow
048. [ ] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [-] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [-] done something you've regretted
056. [-] broke a promise
057. [-] hid a secret
058. [-] pretended to be happy
059. [-] met someone who changed your life
060. [-] pretended to be sick
061. [-] left the country
062. [-] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [ ] cried over the silliest thing
064. [-] ran a mile
065. [-] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
066. [ ] stay single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Air
068. Drinking → Liquid Air
069. I'm about to → Call someone
070. Listening to → My fan
071. Plans for today → Go to TJC open house
072. Waiting for → My brother to end his call

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → Definitely
074. Want to get married? → Yeap
075. Careers in mind → Teacher?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → Shorter
078. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice Stomach
080. Sensitive or loud → Loud with Sensitivity
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → Trouble-Maker.

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Countless, okay maybe thrice
084. Ran away from home → Nope
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → Nah
086. Killed somebody → No
087. Broken someone's heart → I'm not sure, but if I did, Sorryyy
088. Been arrested → Almost
089. Cried when someone died → Yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Yea
091. Miracles → Seen it so yea
092. Love at first sight → More of infatuation then love?
093. Heaven → Yup
094. Santa Claus → Singapore Doesn't have any chimneys, so no
095. Sex on the first date → Nahh
096. Kiss on the first date → Nope

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yeap
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → Right now? Yea
099. Do you believe in God → Yea with all my life
100. This is the 100th and last.

Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

FINALLY.
1- Sheila!
2- Siti Khairunnisa!
3- Sharifah Ameera!
4- Fadhil Alsagoff!
5- Shahirah!
6- Afiqah!
7- Syahidah!
8- Fay!
9- Diyanah!
10- Whoever!

Hi,
I'm really tired to the point that I will sleep if I lie down now, you know?
Well, it's on purpose. Tonight, I'm sure my mind will be absorbed in tomorrow, so by making my self tired to that point, I'll be able to have a good sleep tonight, hopefully
Haha

Finally the date has arrived. Long-awaited yet dreaded like the plague. It makes my heart beat fast in anticipation, yet deep inside, there is a deep fear of what's to come. I guess we all do have something to fear about, just the thought that it will define your future is already overwhelming. Then comes the hopes and dreams, the fear that it will come crashing down with reality. Yet, at the same very moment, the anticipation builds, for some. With knowledge that you have did your best, one can even dream of being one of the top students, the glory and the satisfaction it gives. To me, theres no use fearing for it, essentially. It brings you nothing, except more fear, and probably sleepless nights. Whats done IS done. No fear doesn't mean I'm confident, just that Ive come to terms that this has already been set in stone, and that whatever the results is, it is of my doing, how much I studied and all. To all who harbour the common fear within us, be cool. May tomorrow be a wonderful day for us.

I bid all those getting their results back tomorrow the best, and strength! No, luck is not part of the equation.

Today, had been an interesting and thoroughly fun day.
Day started at 1, okay maybe 1.30. I HAVE A REASON OKAY! Couldn't sleep properly the night before cause it was too cold and I didn't have my blanket. And yes, I sleep with a blanket. Warm sleep is good sleep for me. Hence, when I did sleep, I NEEDED sleep, thats why I woke up at 1

Played DoTA with my brother till he realized he had school and had to rush off. Lol.
It was 3, almost 4, and I promised Muhammad I'd be at his house at 3.

My intention to go to his house was simple, record a video. What was to be recorded, that was the troublesome part, and very embarassing, HAHA. See, today is my friend Sarra's birthday, (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU IF YOU READ MY BLOG!) so we decided to fulfill her wish of seeing me dancing to Muhammad's favourite Korean Girl Group, Wondergirls. DAAAMN. So I had to learn th dance really quick, cause it had to be done TODAY. But we played a little bit of soccer in his house first and this caused my left eye to be swollen. I headed his head. HAHAHA
As I was saying, yea, 30 minutes to learn, and holy shit, it was difficult. Respect Muhammad for being able to dance so well man. It was Gay with a capital G. My abs hurt after practicing it the second time cause I had to shake my hips so much. To dance gay-ishly with my bestfriend and being on video, is SUPER FUN. HAHA, who cares if its gay, we had fun. So after 1 hour, finally we had our video. After reviewing it, I realized I shook my hips abit too much, as compared to Muhammad. "WHATHEF!!" We were laughing so hard we were crying. My stomach still hurts

So HERES the link, if you want to see, which I KNOW YOU DO!
2 Hours later, 100 megabytes later, 5 Videos later, Sarra, THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT. 7 minutes of me and Muhammad dancing to a song called NOBODY. Have fun.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1YOiJv27szY



WHEE
KICAP PEOPLE :D

Last weekend, okay, last saturday, my cousin, whom I lived with when I was young, just got MARRIED. Which is a big deal, yea? But before that, theres the ceremony of ... I don't know what its called in English, but the bride and groom basically sign some official letters to get married.

Less words, more pictures!

The Bride & Groom, cool yea? haha

Now for the wedding.

The Bride's parents, My Uncle and Aunt

The Siblings, Cousins and an Aunt

May they have a blessed marriage.

In 38 minutes, it will be 12. 0000. 010109. A new year.

I believe now is the time to contemplate on the implications of this year before I proceed on with the next. 2008 had been, conflicted. For me, it has been a year of much conflict, of much arguments and distress. Never have I seen so many group of friends break apart so quickly, without a hope of reconcilation. Even I am involved in some of them, rather deeply in one, personally in many, and just on the surface for most. However, once the dust had settled and the air cleared, I realize that this year had been a year where I have changed, for the better. Many lessons were taught, not by people but by experiences, my vision, cleared. Only through enduring challenges can we aspire to achieve higher. Hurdles eh? I remember a speech by a person. In every single moment of life, you are always given a choice. To some, it may not be obvious, but it is A fact that you have a choice, to view a certain matter in a different manner and such. And it is through these choices that define you as a person. Its time to make choice, yea?

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NOW, lets get on with th "2008 Meme", which is just the first sentence of a post of every month.

Okay no, I'd rather insert excerps, they make more sense.

JANUARY : " So, I shall end it with a note in mind, its th journey that matters, not th destination. Peace to all, and may you find peace."

FEBRUARY : " A war is raging, a mistake, not a, but rather a few. Relatives die, brothers and sisters lost, their strand of life cut, homes lost, people stricken with grief and sorrow. Man, we should really be grateful for what we have here in Singapore, though sometimes it may seem that life is against us, we should really think back, is it?"

MARCH : " I believe that I am a jumble of contradictions living harmoniously in one entity."

APRIL : " I've been reading some weird books that tell me about out-of-this-world stuff that makes me twitch."

MAY : " a Third of the race runthe mid year examinations are coming to an end very soon, with just 3 papers to go. Through the turmoil and stress we endured during this vital period of the year, we may learn from our mistakes or remain ignorant of the challenges that stand anew, awaiting us. Weaknesses and strengths of each and every individual are revealed as time pass by us in a blink. The time has arrived for us to make a decision, to be or not to be, to go through all the hardships that WILL come and with an end in mind, or to procrastinate and let life lead us. Though it may seem as a big burden, an overwhelming responsibilty, bit by bit it can be achieved. good things come to those who work for it. ---- It is a scientific fact that Ahmed Khalil Khan's brain is not very efficient in absorbing scientific, mathematical or linguistic facts when his primary organ for digestion, the stomach is lacking in edible biological substances called food. Thank God that his brain has a very high efficiency rate to begin with :D"

JUNE : " A promise, a responsibility, I can't find the correct word to define the actual meaning of amanah which roughly means to keep one's word and such. It's a heavy burden to carry, the heaviest it seems, to completely follow your word, the temptation to break it is so strong, but as many have said, the greatest battle is not fought with others but rather within us. To fight our own demons and overcome it."

JULY : " At this stepping stone in life, where life is seen as negatives in the eyes of one, I've decided that it is not me, hence I have chosen to step away, to open my eyes to the truth."

AUGUST : " "Only through serious inquiry, positive questioning, can one aspire enlightenment.""

SEPTEMBER : " Obliteration of bonds that used to be so strong, just because of a minor incident. Feelings of hate and frustration seem to have an iron grip on the actions of some people, and yet, they do not realize."

OCTOBER : " On the day that we graduated, I realized how time had passed by so fast, feels like it was just yesterday when we came into the school. The years go by, we grow up, experience the rollercoaster ride we call puberty. Make friends, strengthen bonds, break them and cement them in our memory. Sometimes we take for granted the times we have with them, you know? You only miss the things you care for once they're gone, gayy."

NOVEMBER : " IT IS TRUE, what they say about O levels passing by so fast."

DECEMBER :

Well, thats it people. ENJOY YOUR NEW YEAR (:

Its seems that my blog had stalled, well, its just a temporary thing.
Well, don't worry! Now I'm back from Indonesia! Was there last weekend and I have to say that taking some time off to a place where chaos is absent is, refreshing.

The People (From the Left) : My Maid's sister, Kak Abbot's husband, Kak Abbot, Bik Ros, My Mom, My Maid, Bik Nur, My sister, A Friend, Me and My Brother! The only people missing here are the children, who are Mona, Barat, Noi, Indah and Dewi. Hahaha

We took a one hour ferry ride to Sekupang, then headed off to Belakang Padang on a speed boat, which was cool. Belakang Padang, literally, it means Behind the Field, weird eh? Haha. First thing my brother said when we arrived was "LEE!" while mine where "Daaaamn" hahaha. Heres a picture of the place called Belakang Padang, oh, and have I told you that it's beside the sea? So yea, its damn nice.

You can't really take in the atmosphere through pictures, but you get what I mean. Then we just relaxed at Bik Nur's house, which is HUGE, compared to houses here, for the whole afternoon? We decided to go shopping at night, and man, EVERYTHING is Cheap with a capital C. Okay we didn't really go shopping as in to buy shoes and clothes, the first trip was to get the food and stuff. That day was the day why I got darker, SERIOUSLY. Damn, it was so bloody hot, spotlights on full power. Sheesh, haha. Theres another reason, but thats for later. I had my first try at riding a bike that day. It was, exciting? Such a short moment and I almost crashed! Nevermind, I can always try some more, in the future. Later that night we went to the beach, just to see, and I realized that was like the meeting place for all the teens and kids there, practically all of them met there, to slack around and enjoy the sea breeze. It was kinda packed so we decided to go to the house of one of the locals there, which was at the top of a hill overlooking the whole of Belakang Padang. Such a specatacular view! You could see the sea, the village and even Singapore from there! Apparently Singapore's so bright it caused one side of the night sky to be like orange-purple while the other side was deep purple. We spent about an hour there before going home. The sky was glittered with countless of stars, beautiful. When you're there, you realize that only one side of the street is alight. This is because the generators can only provide enough electricity for one side at a time, and our side didn't have electricity for that night. It was okay, other than the fan not being able to function, hence keeping me up till 7, but it was understandable, haha.

The next morning, once again we go shopping, and this time we really shopped for clothes and slippers and stuff, yea. Rather tiring cause we spent the whole morning till around noon shopping! Once home, we rested abit while my brother went crazy riding the bike. He brought me adventuring the area and we stumbled upon this spot where you could see the sunset really clearly, with a backdrop of islands and houses on the water. The day before he took a picture, here it is.
Beautiful isn't it?

After resting and having lunch, we took off to a beach called Pasir Putih, meaning White Sand. Had a few coconuts before jumping off into the sea. Such a wonderful feeling, haha. Swam around for awhile before realizing that all the little children were staring at me. HAHA! So decided to mingle around with them which ended up with me carrying them up and throwing back in, which they crazed for haha! Innocent and pure fun.

FUN RIGHT?! Haha while it lasted. After which, we departed and said our goodbyes to the land where the thousands rule, in currency that is.

On the way home, I realized that I love the sea, though I may not be able to swim in it well. I love how the wave appears, the mist as it clashes, the white froth that trails behind. When the thunderous waves created by the ferry as it slices the sea clashes, it appears as if there were souls in the sea, grabbing out, trying to hold on to something. The Mystic Sea.

AND THAT is my maid, whos been with my family since I was born, well except for a few lapses here and there, count them and there should be at least of 13 years of service to my family and I. Damn. I have to say, she has earned my utmost respect.
Especially for tolerating all the nonsense that my siblings and I bring wherever we go haha. She works countless hours, always in one building, with no assistants (okay maybe sometimes) and not seeing her family for such a long time. Can you imagine?!

Currently she's in Indonesia, visiting her family and to attend her sister's daughter's wedding, which I would too! So, now my house which has rarely seen a day without her, is MAID-LESS, haha! Though it's only been 2 days since she went, I can already see the house slowly changing. Its no longer speckless or perfectly in order, but you'd expect that. We shall go on for two weeks, we can take this, haha.

I wish I could filter my presence from people, like can appear offline to some, and online to others. Ignore that.

Listen to Call On Me by Eric Prydz, quite catchy, to me that is.

I remember an old dude quoting another old dude about how the worst sickness that a person could have is the fear of death. The Fear of Death. Its a human feeling, to fear death. He commands and it claims what is his, without a blink. And the fact that we wouldn't know what would happen next, or do we? Death signifies the end of life. Thats that. I think people fear death cause they love life too much, yea? The idea of it ending just stings some people I guess. I think it all depends on how life was for you. If it was good and luxurious, yea I believe the person wouldn't want to die. But if we examine the quote properly, you wonder why its a sickness. Then, to love life excessively would be a sickness to would it? I heard a poem, saying that we live to live then and that we die to live then. That death is not the end, but rather the beginning. This poem triggered this post. I apologize for the religious-ish-ness of this post, but yea, eventually, thats all that matters mm? When I think about life, I think about Death cause Death is the Beginning of Life.
I wish to break free from the chains that bind Man to this world that is dying.

Initially I already had in mind what I wanted to blog about, well the draft that is, but now, I have forgotten most of it, so im gonna try to remember it all, hmm

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It started off as a murmur, everyone reciting different things at different times,
then, slowly, the pace started picking up, and soon, you can hear that everyone is synchronized. It keeps getting louder and faster, voices of men bouncing off the walls of the narrow house. Suddenly you feel as if youre not anywhere you think you are, as if the atmosphere had changed within a few seconds. Really a strange feeling if you ask me, and if you consider the voices of many men chanting praises simultaneously with such fanatism, you'd have a chill running down your spine everytime you think about it. Then as sudden as it had changed, it would revert back to the ordinary. The best part is that within minutes, food would be served and Life as we know it, would carry on. All this while, you feel as if time had stopped just for this out of this world occasion. Weird yea? Hahaha, thats why I always say I'm going to another dimension. Since most of the conversations I heard or were involved in were not meant for peoples ears, I guess the part about my vacation ends here gay

On another note, I second my brothers opinion that the world is slowly turning into shit. HAHAHAHAHAA, sorry about that. I mean, really, if you look around, you do see things that you know deep in your heart, isn't right, yet its happening right before your eyes and the best thing is, no ones doing anything about it! I do not feel of this generation. Well, THATS LIFE. Mmm, Im starting to talk to myself, this is bad.

I think I'm going to start my drawing spree very soon, got stuffs to complete, so should you want anything to be drawn, okayokay-ishly, just ask and i'll try, I repeat, TRY.

Theres a doubt in my mind, that I won't do well for my Os, and its really hard to quelch it. Its been tugging my head for quite some time, and though I hope its not true, it just gets scarier when I think about it. Ahh, but what to do, whats done is done, so lets just wait and see, one of the best things I can do. Insyallah we all do well, yea? Except for the minority who didn't sit for it ah, walao.. GoodBye!

My brother was infront of me, on the phone, Bioinformatics in hand x)
At Macs, i seem to get most of my inspiration, strangely HAHA.
So yea, i couldnt believe how fast it was completed seh
MEHH nonetheless, just a rough drawing, i shall finish it up properly, on plain WHITE paper, not foolscap haha x)

Just a short post, it has ended i think. Wait, no it hasn't

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TOMORROW BLOOD SHALL BE SPILT
lambs blood that is, haha
i remember writing a poem in sec 2 about this, but ive forgotten it lol
HAII then ill be leaving for 3 days to another dimension, like on th day itself x)
it will be a solo mission, considering that my brother wouldnt be there, so i hope it'd be interesting seh, thats for sure.
i hear african music x)

NAMASTE. :D

It was a humid night yesterday, my skin felt sticky, uncomfortable, hence I resorted to drawing and talking till I became too tired. Hahaha

The camera sucks so yea. IF only I had a scanner, ah how easy this would be x)




If isn't clear to you, well, its a fist clenched, catching a ribbon. I don't know why I suddenly drew this, hmm.

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I need to find a job, to fill up my days, and my wallet? Haha
Really seh, you can't 'enjoy' 'life' without money these days, everywhere you go, you have to spend some here and there, even if you don't intend to! Its just part of life eh?

Just completed something, felt really good, though it was quite tiring. Felt as if I had achieved something, not for myself, but for someone who is incapable of doing anything else on this Earth. Woo :D

Im Hungry. as always

bored.

I realize that I have this inside me for a long long time, I think its time I let it out

I dont think its right, for you to be looking down on my brother and me, i dont think its right that you condemn my brother just because his Os wasn't what you expected, i dont think its right for you to bring your anger from work back, i dont think its right for you to constantly discourage us, i dont think its right for you to treat me like im a soldier, i dont think its right that you always put the blame on mummy for us being so, i dont think its right for you to be insensitive in your words, i dont think its right that you think you're always right, i dont think its right that you always throw your anger around, i dont think its right that you dont utter a word of support or congratulations to us, i dont think its right for you to believe that we are bad, i dont think its right for you to think that all my words are lies, i dont think its right for you to say that your words are commands for me to follow, i dont think its right for you to raise your voice to mummy, i dont think its right for you to be not understanding at all, i dont think its right that you treat us badly, i dont think its right that you hurt ziqah, i dont think its right that everything is about pride, i dont think its right for you to think that your methods are okay, i dont think its right for you to make mummy cry, i dont think its right for you to let mummy feel so helpless as she watch, i dont think its right for you to make ziqah bear all your hopes, i dont think its right that you always not fail to hurt us with your words, i dont think its right that youre still like this despite their teachings, i dont think its right that you always assume the worst in us, i dont think its right for you to make bai feel looked down upon in front of dadi and pu jan, i dont think its right that you always leave an air of anger and tension whenever you reprimand us, i dont think its right that the house always feels alien and hostile when you're home, i dont think its right that you think mummy is at fault. i dont think its right, but do you ever care what we think? lol.

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Sucking grape-flavoured Mentos makes you thirsty. IT DOES!

This post is dedicated to the group of close friends I have over at Temasek Secondary, for they have held a surprise party for me last last week.( sorry ah, the pictures took a long time seh! )

The day began with my brother asking me to meet him at his school later on, saying "oh, suhaila wants to meet you ah, she ader hal (got something up)" So i went along, since I've not met Su for such a long time, then we went to Simpang to go meet her. As i walked to Simpang, I saw the mats, Jo, Azhar, Ali across the road, "Wah! coincidence!" lol. Walking unsuspectingly, suddenly I saw muhammad, siti, shaz, jane, sadiq, yanen and ahmed seated with Su. Then the balloons and the cake. HAHAHA! At that moment, i was going like "OMG OMG OMG SIA YOU GUYS OHMYGOOOODDD!!!" Yea, for that moment, that was all i could say, especially since they were singing a birthday song haha. Man, at that moment, i was utterly speechless, too happy to say anything, other than OMG. haha x)

To THEM, i would like to say a hearty THANK YOU, for your gifts and time spent to make that day a day for me, and most importantly, for your love and care. Thanks man.
I would never forget that day, nor would i forget them. heh (:

Here are the pictures










Funny funny people, 18nd November. :D

I got sick of bombing bases and firing missiles, so here I am, haha
Its very warm.

Watched the movie Mirrors just now, rather terrifying, if you tell me.
I like the way the producer explores the human fear of not knowing what we cannot see. If you turn away while facing the mirror, you never know how your reflection is.
It may still be looking at you, staring, just as in the movie, or not. Haha, I guess humans do fear what we don't know, eh? Don't we all, sometimes? I especially find it scary for other reasons. Personally, I don't like the mirror. Childhood thing that scares me, but I think I've overcome it. Woo. To think that my house is full of mirrors, how ironic.

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My journeys to another dimension have been fruitful, and has taught me much.
Lessons of life and facts of the universe, some Milo ice ( YES IT EXISTS THERE ) and food, and all is good. Oh and the wonderful furry creatures too. Haha

The Bad Only Disturbs The Good