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Breathe in.

Breathe out.

In the name of the Most Generous, Most Knowledgeable, Who Sees and Hears all.

What differentiates Man from beast, is Aql, or loosely translated as Intellect; the gift and ability to process, reflect, ponder, store, wonder and more. Only with this Intellect can we have the ability to improve our being through the attainment of Enlightenment and Knowledge. 

Change cannot occur without action, and action cannot occur without intent, and intent cannot occur with desire. How, how can we as human beings look upon an open door, and choose to close it? I hope this will never happen to me. The path has been illuminated and made clear, the signs have shown the way and the destination, the door has been open, and all I have to do is to tell my limbs, my mind, my heart and my spirit, to walk through that door and to continue on the path.

The responsibility that comes with Enlightenment and Knowledge is to act upon that opportunity given and to change one's self. It is also to act upon what you now know and to apply it into your life. There is no benefit, no fruition if the seed is present, but it is not planted in the soil, nor if it is not taken care of. I hope that I will change and that the seed will bear fruit for verily I know it will. 

Walk through to that door, Ahmed Khalil Khan, walk through that door.

Ameen.

The wisdom of words spoken in hushed tones, behind closed doors, for some that is not for most.

I'd swim the ocean for You.

there is always a reason, a plan behind it all, unseen and unknown, we swim in an ocean with no horizon in sight, our vision clouded by fear, for we see not the shore that lies ahead, what limited vision we have, yet we remember not, overcome in our limitations, we forget, we forget to breathe, our limbs, they can only do so much, they tire, we tire and soon, all we can do is keep awake, and our body fails and we drift, carried off by the current, tides with purpose, unseen and unknown to us, what is this current, where does it come from, where does it lead, we care not, all we know we have drifted off and yet, we are moving still, we do not sink, we float as it is in our body to float, what made us, knows we will tire and we will face difficulty, face fear, face hopelessness, but we do not remember but still it does not fail us.


stop. Stop trying to swim in the ocean so vast, you have no power, you are so human.

stop. Stop and let it be, let it go.

stop. And the shore will appear, for all waves end up lapping against a shore, and that is the promise.

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The Seven Oft-Repeated Verses.

I only had the urge to truly understand it recently. It being repeated so many times in a day, it seemed mind-boggling for me to not understand the meaning behind, and why did it take so long? I do not know. I only knew that I must know and embrace its meaning, soon, quickly and fully.

The first tier of understanding is always to take what is read or heard literally. This gives us the basic understand of what the message is, what the context is and the beings involved.

The second tier of understanding is tafsiran, or interpretation. This gives us a deeper understanding in the sense that we are now examining why such words are spoken in certain ways, we try to figure out the subliminal tones involved and the implied effects of the chosen words. It enables us to have to have a better clue behind the reasons why such verses were sent down, their purpose.

The next tier of understanding I believe, is one that cannot be learnt or taught by another person. It is understanding that comes as a gift from Him and this tier of understanding, encompasses the very essence of the verses sent down, no, not the verses, but the very hurufs or alphabets that make up the verses. It gives a dimension to the very utterance of the huruf and its meaning is not verbally understood but is felt by the essence of the body. It is a gift, and as many of His gifts, they are hard to understand.

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Understand, for without understanding; 

the words you speak, 

the actions you do, 

they are incomplete.

Flick of a Switch

There can be no light where there is darkness.
Darkness and disease wrack the Heart, absent.
Light and noble traits beautify the Heart, present.
Actions, words and thoughts leave impressions.
Like water on rock, they carve th way of our Hearts.
Be mindful of them, their strength and direction,
keep them in check and the way is true.
Good traits are not in-born, they are influenced,
and are mimics of environment they inhabit.
Sometimes we are placed in the good, other times, the bad.
But in the end, it is our decision that the Heart follows.
Discipline yourself, physically, mentally, spiritually,
in order to remove the Darkness that tarnishes.
Like dirt, if left unattended, will pile on high.
Do not disregard it or pay it little heed, important.
Take active steps to always purify yourself, habit.
Slowly but surely, wash away the impurities that exist,
cure yourself of the many diseases that riddle your Heart,
then, and only then, CAN Light be made present.

Fear

The cold seeps through the bones, extinguishing warmth that seem to only be an illusion.
The cold seeps through the bones, into the mind and leaves a physical and mental chill.

I look around and all seems normal, yet the odd sensation hangs heavy in the air and the hair at the nape of my neck stands, shivers running up and down my spine. I close my eyes, seeking a sanctuary from this perpetuating fear that is enveloping my being with such abruptness. Instead of the peace and tranquillity, an unsightly image appeared and I forced my eyes open, shocked, the fear multiplied manifold.

Something dropped and my heart skipped a beat, in my fear, I cried out in fear with hopes to banish whatever fragment of my imagination that had materialized. I was stricken with fear.



It was a... chilling experience, to be so overwhelmed with fear. Rarely does it ever happen to me.
And I know deep down, what is the root cause of that fear, and I am fully aware that it is entirely my own doing.

Peace at Heart

Failure is a consequence, an effect of cause. The cause may be clear as day, or shrouded from us, but it is there.

Our human minds wrestle with the possible causes of failure, questioning its credibility and seeking something to justify either the fairness of failure or the unfairness of failure.

Our human emotions are plunged into the pit of despair and turmoil that accompanies failure, bitter and hopeless we feel helpless. We feel what are human emotions tell us.

Our Hearta, what does our Heart say or do when failure knocks by her door? The Heart is simple, it answers, and accepts. The Heart seem to say 'I have failed.' She seeks no recompense or reassurance, the Heart tells us that what happens has happened and happens.

It is our mind and our emotions that seek justification, our mind and emotions that seek answers, our mind and emotions that are thrown into turmoil and sadness and despair.

And so, as the storm subsides and the dust has settled, I look at my Heart and listen to her Peace.