Whenever everytime things seem distant, when every sound seems to be just loud echoes,
it reminds me of my very warped nightmare, one that has haunted me over and over again, though less frequently now.

Theres a big mess of machinery, of gears and what not, integrated as one unstable mechanism. I am merely a small observer of this frighteningly massive object. Then, without any warning, it suddenly breaks apart, into huge pieces of metal that rain down on me. Helpless as I am, I am suddenly saturated with guilt, somehow responsible for the chaos that had occured. Within my mind itself, there is chaos. The world seems to be flashing black and white, confusing and glaring. There is no proper definition of anything that resembles the physical world as the lines that border these objects are constantly changing, like scratches or when the television receives no transmission. I am getting smaller, as the chunks of metal get larger, and all these while, I am frozen, rooted to the ground, unmoving. I am not running for shelter or shielding myself, merely standing there, open to the onslaught. The onslaught that never arrives, merely happening, never impacting. As though I am a spectre, I observe myself from afar, unbounded yet affected.

Then I wake up.

It is a pressing time for us.

Datelines and expectations,

project work and promos.

Sleep, a luxury we oh so treasure.

Sapped of our energy,

we drag ourselves,

persevering this torment.

For in our minds,

it is not th surrounding darkness that fills.

But rather, the warm glowing light,

amidst soft fluffy pillows.

Think not of the panda lids,

weary eyes and dazed mind.

Lest we doom ourselves,

to reality and its crushing blow.

Ramadhan, a.k.a the fasting month, is finally coming, in two days!
Though it is a significant event, I'm surprised that not many non-muslims truly understand the purpose, significance and it in general, haha. So I shall try to see what I can share yea?

See, Ramadhan is a month that spans from 28 days to 30 days, and USUALLY happens towards the second half of the year. See, the Muslim calendar is similar to the Gregorian calendar, with 12 months and all, however, there is one difference. Each month of the Muslim calendar begins when theres a new moon, and hence ends when a new one is seen. Due to this characteristic of the Muslim calendar, it is shorter than the Gregorian calendar by 11 days, and thus each month would happen 11 days ahead of the date it previously happened! Thats why Ramadhan keeps getting closer and closer. It could even happen on January eventually! Damn, lol.

The purpose of fasting is simple, it is to remind one of the hardships faced by people, such as those who go on living with little or no food at all. This reminder serves as something to humble one as well as make one grateful of the bounty one receives, and takes for granted. Simple? Haha

However, there is more to it than it seems! This is where the lack of understanding comes in. See, what we mean by fasting is NOT only to consume food, but rather involves many other matters. The basic rule that you have to abide by is not not to eat, but rather to not have anything to enter one's body through the holes in one's body such as mouth, nose etc. So this means that we can't like put in finger in our mouth or smoke! Theres more! Other than not eating, one has to restrain oneself from thinking of bad things or do for any for that matter, you know, haha. One also cannot swear, cannot think of food, cannot drink and stuff like that.

This is where the other purpose of fasting comes in. To look at it merely as not eating would be shallow, in my opinion. The other purpose is to resist the temptations that exist within us. This temptation, we call it nafsu, is something that exists within ALL of us, at any given time or given place. Its like the wanting of the heart, the body, you dig? This wanting is not necessarily good, and may even be detrimental to us. Hence, fasting hopes to strengthen one's inner self-control against these temptations. So please people, be considerate and not offer us food or tempt us!

Scientifically speaking, fasting in GENERAL, and not necessarily in the Muslim context, is actually beneficial to the body! It supposedly gives the stomach a period of resting, relaxing and recovering. The stomach, as any part of the human body, cannot be overworked. What is meant by overworked is how it is always in use, as we consume food daily, hourly. A period of time where we do not consume food as regularly would help the stomach and also detoxify the body from the harmful substances that come along with today's food.

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As I typed all the above, my eyes were closed. Training is fun, and tiring, DOH. Till we met again, take care people!

and remember,

SEVEN MORE WEEKS TO PROMOTIONAL EXAMSSS

if only i could blog through audio, itll be so fun!

says hello in a weird voice. HELLO. haha

I just had my quarter-yearly haircut just now, and now my hair is less curly! My sister says its like carpet grass, interestingg. My barber was an Indian man. Its not very common to see an Indian man able to speak Chinese working at a Malay barber. Racial integration, quite cool man.

I think it must have been difficult for him to cut my hair cause as he was cutting it, he tugged at it quite fiercely, pain man. There was one time where he raised my hair all th way to make it easier for him to cut and man, I look like super saiyan with curly hair! If youre wondering what that looks like, its something like this.

Then we shared a laugh, cause its really funny! Damn, my hair is long. Imagine, normally curly hair seems short cause th hair just curls and curls. Before this, mine was like BALL. A huge ball of hair, it was damn long. Pity the barber. It took him a while to cut my hair short, and now, it looks like this!

Im sorry to crush your enthusiasm, but its on the computer. Haha! I think my hair is an apt representation of myself, lol. Its curly and messy and all, which is like me, never staying still, always moving about, energetic. Its curliness hides its depth, just as how I'm so hyper and high that sometimes people think theres no deeper side of me, haha. Lastly how no matter what, it remains the same, neverchanging, like me and my beliefs. Never will I let them go. I can't even imagine myself with straight hair, its just too weird. Go ahead and try, lol.

The retarded things I did in front of the mirror while changing just now:

1) Try to belly dance, LOL. ALMOST THERE, but not quite. Don't ask me why, haha

2) Do the robot dance

3) Pretend I'm doing silat, a traditional form of fighting, where i laughed at myself after doing it.

4) Weird and funny facial expressions

5) Yoga, HAHA

HELLO GAYS.

I have moulted from the downcast shell I resided in.

I am now of many colours, of flight and happiness!

I am Ahmed Khalil Khan. Wheee

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A friend of mine, Zafirah Zein, returned on short notice from Dubai a few weeks ago.

A rather close friend, all of us here in Singapore missed her greatly!

Our friend here is the life of a party, and so, we held a party by the beach yesterday!

It was rather mundane at the start, with people missing and what not.

But as the sun sank deeper into the sea, ahh the party emerged!

Though there were some who were not as close, the walls came crashing down

and all of us seemed like we were friends for ages, such a good feeling it was.
The food was delicious, the atmosphere seemed alive, the place free from authority,

and most importantly, the people,

were

absolutely

fantastic

and a note, before the party got going, me, fadhil, husrin and sean, went off to just chill, and got high on redbull, THIS, serves as an explanation for some pictures you will soon see, haha!

Here they are

Some of the people

The Guys, this was probably th most decent picture of us

Me Husrin Sean Fadhil.

Our Mess :D

The People that stayed till late

The following pictures are normal pictures.

ZAFIRAH!

That was it, lol.

Here are those of when we were high!

They are many more, but ah, it is late now, is it not? For that, I shall end here, goodnight people! Good are the days, we must treasure them for very soon, they will simmer and cease to exist :D