HI.

Okayokay, i disappeared for two days to chill at another dimension.
but I'm back, with cameras full of pictures! So here goes.
First and foremost, the long awaited graduation night, that sounds gay, make it grad nite. HAHA!

Summary of events:
THE LIMO RIDE (this is like OMG.) - pictures of arrival - dinner - chao. HAHA quite short, but very memorable :)
















































THE END. :D

I AM NOT GETTING WHATEVER FOR GRADUATION NIGHT THIS FRIDAY
It is too costly and because of financial strains.
Damn, i feel envious looking at people.
Meh, character is more outstanding :D
Reduce, Reuse, Recycle it shall be.
Hope it will be a memorable event
With much laughter and tears,
A brew of Joy and Reluctance
Ohh the years pass by so fast
Haha

WHOA. DAMN PEOPLE, Its going to end IN TWO DAYS TIME. 48 hours. FORTYEIGHT.
after that, utter freedom! (for the moment that is) And we shall rejoice
after a gruelling month eh? Haha, for some, for some. It has been a wonderful
journey, this O levels. It taught me much, from learning to cope with time to
getting shit straight before its too late and lastly, that in the end, we all
have to study, at some point, for our own sake, HAHA. So yeah, to people who
are ending this hurdle tomorrow, all the best of luck, for we have yet to end!

I AM BORED.
I WAS AT MACS.
MY FRIENDS WERE THERE.
STUDYING.
I DREW A PICTURE.
A QUICK ONE.
THEN ANOTHER.
AND HERE WAS THE RESULT.




the fish one, idea by sadiq, for my new friend from VS. AMEK KAU.

IT IS TRUE, what they say about O levels passing by so fast.
Couldn't be sure whether it was a breeze or not, especially with the Bell Jar curve thing, haha
Now all that remains are 3 MCQs, triple science, 30% of the grade, AND ITS OVER.
O for OVER. But it ain't over till it's over, so must still study yea
Fat lady need to sing, HURRY!

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Nothing to blog about, Next fridays Gradnite, and people are so buying stuff everywhere. GAY sia. Obama WON! It wasn't a surprise, was it? haha

vanakam.

To the intrigueing Kid,

I believe we have not met, yes? You have been on my mind for some time. See, I am a person that doesn't like to be in the dark, metaphorically AND literally, haha. Anonymity is fun, I guess, its like hide-and-seek game. Well, back to you, see, not many english-speaking and blog-visiting people I know call me by my second name. And they are only a handful, really. And I believe all of them know that It's okay to talk to me about say whatever, haha. So, since you're anonymous and all, I don't believe I know you. Yet, you know my past. Interesting. So IF I was right, that I do not know you, you know somebody I know. Very interesting, someday, we'll share a laugh over this. You say Finally, have you been trying? I wonder why...

Well, this is hope that you DO read my blog again, if not, then, , haha x)

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ABEH.
OMG, Os IS ENDING. :D

selamat malam goodnight.

See the mirror in your eyes
the truth behind the lies,
your lies are haunting me YOU SURE?!

I'm not emo, those are just lyrics of the song i've been listening to while i study.
In and out of love - Van buuren guy (sp?), a.k.a lagu Apam.


I'm bored, so i apologize if this post is senseless. moo.

Briyani is waiting for me. Dalca too.

6 days to Os, 29 more days to becoming crazy in public maybe, one month of the day my mum gave birth to me. HAHA.

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this year has passed by in a flash man, if you think about it, you can't believe that 2008 is almost coming to an end. Hmm.

Okay, i want to eat now. Jemput!

Only time will tell


Ahh, finally, the Os are coming. Eight more days to be exact.
Dont know what to say, kinda mixed up i guess.
Its finally here, so theres relief.
ITS FINALLY HERE, theres some hint of reluctance and fear right there.
and maybe, its FINALLY here, some excitement i believe.

Preparations are up and coming, a bit of finetuning here and there, some rememorizing and yea, moo.

Had a talk with Sepal while everyone was watching Pendekar Bujang Lapok the other day, funny show it is hahaha. We reached to the conclusion that Singapore's Education Standards are fairly high in the clouds compared to other countries, and that eventually, we will all die. HAHA. An interesting conversation we had, yes Apam? LEE

Hari Raya has virtually ended for me for now, kinda surprised that some of my friends are still going out tomorrow, which would be when its a week till Os. But they're from VS, so maybe they have a secret weapon up their sleeves. Like yesterday, my whole family went to Malaysia to visit my dad's friend, but when i woke up at 7 to ask my mom whether I'm going, she went "You go out to study everyday, takkan today pun tak nak ikut?" and went back in, still groggy-eyed haha. The best thing is, when i went back to sleep knowing that i have school in 2 hours, i knew i'm gonna get shouted at. Lo and behold, at 8.30, my dad shouted at me, "YOU SAID YOU WOULD NOT GO OUT ANYMORE RIGHT?! WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME?" Nyehh, they have very different perspectives to life yea? What to do...

I am sick and facts are having trouble entering my head. Crystal ball man.

MOO.

helloo

first and foremost, selamat hari raya to all you people out there yea
forgive for all my misdeeds, whenever i hit you, make fun of you or irritate the shit out of you, i humbly apologize, aye? haha forgive and forget!

Pictures some other time, loads of em, and its just for the first three days, lol

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HOLY SHIT.
fourteen more days to O levels man, 2 WEEKS LEFT sia
sheesh. nevermind, we will prevail.

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on the day that we graduated, i realized how time had passed by so fast
feels like it was just yesterday when we came into the school
the years go by, we grow up, experience the rollercoaster ride we call puberty
make friends, strengthen bonds, break them and cement them in our memory.
sometimes, we take for granted the time we have with them, you know?
you only miss the things you care for once theyre gone. gayy

haha nevermind, as one door closes, two more open.

TOHPEHKONG SIAM BETUL!

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AKU GEMOK AND SO ARE YOU.

A desperate situation occured today, and rather unsuspectingly so.
Like an already taut elastic string, and suddenly, someone decided to let go.
It comes back, hitting you, though you didn't expect it.
You cant scold back, cause you're holding the other end.
Just as responsible for causing yourself the pain.

As i sat on the bus, discussing some matters of human behaviour with a friend, I realized that the world is coming to an end not because of a substantial natural disaster, but rather how the world, or rather humanity will crumble into itself, into an abyss, the hole in the human spirit.

Its 10.40pm and I'm talking about how the world is getting screwed, I think I'm going nuts.

I got 16 points for L1R5 for Prelims, guess i have to be grateful i improved, but must still press on to get a single digit, yea?

AKU NGANTOK.

GANGSTA PANDA.

HAHAHA! Kinda gay skin yea? I agree, but well, its quite nice, much better than the previous calvin and hobbes skin which lasted for more than a year ( CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! WHAT A LAZYBUM I AM ) HAHA! Well, WHOO! :D

damn, its already Saturday! This week passed like a breeze, okay, more of a gust. Can hardly believe that a WEEK has passed! Maybe it has something to do with th fact that the days have not been fully occupied with activities, yea? The best thing is, next week, BAM! The final semester begins, THE final semester, mind you.

I have a random MEME to do, which ima do LATER, not now.

Nothings in my mind at this particular moment, so im just going to show what i did yesterday while my brother played dota xD

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HOHOHO, gansta panda. got bored at night, and saw a fake tattoo thingy of the characters of kungu panda, HENCE, the creation of a chinese-born panda living in the ghettos. HAHA!

OH! NOW theres something in my mind.

Yesterday, went for terawih at a mosque which had a particularly cool guest coming in after it, Sheikh Afeeffuddeen AL Geylani, if i remember correctly. Well, this guys cool cos he is a descendant of a very VERY unique man, Sheikh Abdul Kadir Al Jailani. His visit sure opened my eyes to a few things, cleared somethings that my friend has put up, yea, it was a good syarahan. Especially the part about clearing your sins, especially in this month. So yea, learnt a few things, then Muhammad decided that being generous was good, so he treated my brother, luqman and I slurpees at 11pm xD then went to his block to lepak with Fadhil but LAST MINUTE GILER cancel mcm jew. HAHA, i think anyone who had gone for terawih yesterday but chose to skip th syarahan have missed an eye-opener.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. physics is GAY

alas, there leaves only a month before the major examinations,
so quick time flies, a month of trials await!

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take a look at the calendar!
its already september, meaning its the LAST month, and also the holy month, Ramadhan!
Hahaha when i look at people, i barely see any difference, wonder if they realize any change within themselves, haha, whos to know, waallahualam.

So currently its the September holidays, i think i'm suffering from prelim-lag, i feel empty if i dont at least do some amath sums or something, haha well its a good thing, yea. Can't wait to get back the prelim results, its gonna be like my benchmark on my current state of mind, haha. If i do well, then good for me, means that i would need some more hard work to achieve wonderful results, but if it sucks, means its time to be buck up, TIME TO BUCK UP! I believe that would be virtually everybodys' nightmare if they get bad results. Insyallah i did well, man i better sia

HAHAHA! Let me tell you about something funny that happened to my cousins, my bro, luqman and I! we were like walking through tampines interchange after Terawih wearing songkoks and baju kurungs/kurtas and all, then suddenly a makcik owning one of them shops by th sides called us, "COME COME, AUNTY GIVE FREE!" HAHA, my brother was walking away already, thinking that it was just another makcik persuading us to buy her goods, but lo and behold, she really gave us free food and drinks, not some, A LOT! haha! we eventually walked away with 3/4 packets of drinks, 2 packets of nasi bryani each, and a WHOLE plastic bag of epok-epoks, LANGKAH KANAN OR WHAT! as in, what goodluck! haha yea, alhamdullilah, we walked in right into rezeki, and to think the day before, when we were late for terawih and when an uncle offered a ride, we rejected, a string of goodlucks eh? I hope it goes all th way until after Os end :D

recently, some light have been shed on the current bonds of the people around me and what i've seen worries me deeply. obliteration of bonds that used to be so strong, just because of some minor incident. feelings of hate and frustration seem to have an iron grip on the actions of some people, and yet, they do not realize. and the strangest thing, if i remember correctly, this is a recurring incident of what had happened in the past, which however does not involve me. Damn, what is this going to end up in. If this continues, i can't imagine how graduation would be. Helpless, i feel.

sorry for the late update should there be anyone who've been waiting x)

peace.

its 10.44 pm, th suns shining and IM AT HOME EATING CHICKIN NUGGETS, ahh
finally, a short but much needed break for we who sit for the Os, haha
theres a paper at 2, malay P2, but nvm that, whats more important is tomorrows PHYSICS. guess im going to study as much as i can when i feel it, cos i dont wanna fail physics at ALL, at least get a B3, nvm, i will.

thats practically wats been up these few days, other than th crappy things that we do while waiting for another paper x)

no actual purpose for this post, so just end it here
peace~

"only through serious inquiry, positive question, can one aspire enlightenment,"

It is always best for people to know both sides of the story, just as the man who stated the above had said, to free ourselves of subjectivity, so that we may strictly analyze another which is not of our own ideas, such that in the end, we may stand ever confident with our beliefs or embrace that of another.

Many incidents that have come to pass which concerns the people who are close to me and indirectly me, and I can't help but wonder what makes these people so certain of what they hear or read. Are they that certain that what they know is the whole truth?
I do not believe that they do not consider the reliabity of the 'facts' they hear but rather that they just choose to ignore it just for the sake of their friends.

Nuff said,


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WHOOOOO! Prelims have officially began with the Social Studies paper last Friday! The burden of facing papers day after day, the stress of getting your facts right, the exhiliration you get after completing one, knowing that as the days go by, soon you may enjoy ( though not for us x) ) is BACK! HAHA omg, i sound like a freak! But hey, they say always face something with lightheartedness, so here i am! No use getting all stressed up like a freak, losing hair and all just for exams, sure it decides our future and probably a few rewards here and there, but obviously by now, it has become a part and parcel of being a student for what, *counts with fingers* close to 10 years? Hahaha, the sad but defining reality of education in Singapore x)

So SS was done pretty easily, but whos to say, Ms Neo said they'll be marking as if its the Os itself! So, not really sure of that. Amaths on Tuesday, so, hopefully that'll be fun. The most saddest thing that could happen to me is that I would not be able to ace the paper, for I myself am sure that i could get A, considering that i could do Dunman High's amaths paper 2 with stunning ease, hopefully not aye? haha

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I just realized today that my body is really tired and have been trying to tell me, but I've been completely ignoring it. Woke up after a wonderful 13 hours of sleep and looked at myself in the mirror.

Without my spectacles, i look seemingly different, as in i could actually see my eyes, the eyelashes and all, and the very saggy dark circle thats underneath it. Kinda makes me think, Am i really that tired? Well maybe i am, but mentally im not, like who would readily accept that fact when the Prelims just began, yes? So i said no, but my body is. Wonderful how our brains are able to perceive our condition despite bold evidence of it through our physical appearance huh. My cousin who is in NTU right now, went to the docs after feeling weird. Apparently, the doc said that my cousins brain wants to rest, its really tired, it wants to let go, chill a little, but that his eyes want to keep on reading, to keep on studying and not rest, scary yet intrigueing isn't it? COOL SHITS.

alright, its time to bathe, im fat, akugemok. HAHA

hellohellohelloo

ohmygod, my thighs HURT.
yesterday was the school's annual cross country, funfun, got ninth position, for the FIRST TIME, and among some good runners too! WHOAHAHAHA haha x) then had the tree as my sole comforter, thankyou tree. No, seriously, you know trees with branches and all, not a person i call tree or whatsoever x)

and i had my first burger king meal yesterday too.
MANNN burgerking is BURGER KING. like, the breads so soft, the meat so tender, its all goood seh, lol

PRELIMS ARE NEXT WEEK! and i have only touched 3-4 subjects out of 7, so thats bad. mehh

WHOO OLYMPICS! see you people. somewhere over the rainbow.

You guys ever heard of Gog and Magog? Damn, and i thought the world was screwed up with Bush as US president. When these guys finally do come out, its going to be sooo messed up man, like WHOA.

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OHMYGOD, our days have been numbered!
upupup for revising, downdowndown for other things
seriously, I have just realized the proximity of the oncoming examinations
its like, "VOOOSH!" and they are back again, this time round, harder and prepared to KILL. But nevermind, this time, I have promised myself that i will prepare myself to prove that Im worthy of getting the bloody As that i deserve, "whoots" to that!
Its time to put my socks to my knees, my right hand on my pen, my left on my calculator, and the books in my brain. Lets just hope i keep to my word eh? See ya around!

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See, that was my brain talking, but as you can see, My brain is just another part of me, and not all of it. Damn, physics sure suck and i'm damn sure i'm not going to put it into my L1R5, unless by a superb miracle, i score an A for it, then yea, you get my point.

I officially strongly dislike the principal and her opinions -slash- methods to regain the success and glow of Temasek that was abolished the moment she stepped onto our school grounds. Like COME ON, NO GRADUATION NIGHT, NO SPORTS DAY, NO BE YOURSELF DAY, damn im starting to think that SHOULD all of the Secondary Four cohort score extremely well for our Os, She'd think that "OHH MY GOD, MY METHODS WORK, I WILL DO THIS FOR THE REST OF MY TIME HERE!" Man, if that DOES happen, i sure pity the juniors, they're time in Temasek would be absolutely different as compared to ours, hah, but nevermind that, its theirs, not ours.

The other part of my brain is yelling something like this "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU CARING ABOUT THIS MAN?! THE FREAKING O's IS COMING AND YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT CELEBRATING ALREADY? DAMN YOU'RE SCREWED" I somewhat agree with him, but it is undeniably kind of eye-popping news if you hear that despite all your efforts and contributions to the school, you dont get to spend some final and lasting ours in the school to celebrate and rejoice after overcoming a huge phase, wouldn't you?

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I have come to the conclusion that more and more people nowadays are becoming one sided in terms of basis of accusations, knowledge, information and basically how they see things. See, the thing is, being on ONE side does not equate to being right, because you may never know whether you're right or wrong if you only know one side, yes? So why do people still think it is?! Like, come on, use some brains would you?

Okay, I'm sleepy and hungry, goodbye and stay in school, hohohehehaha

at this stepping stone in life, where life is seen as negatives in th eyes of one, i've decided that it is not me, hence i have chosen to step away, to open my eyes to the truth.



lately, ive realized ive become physically as well as mentally tired, fatigue tugging me from every angle, being the primary obstacle for me to achieve what i wish to do. alas, i now feel what it feels like to be stressed out, yes? haha, i guess so. nerves of steel or strength of an ox, it does not matter, neither gives me assistance in this time of need. what i need, is simply, an iron will. hence i will forge it with time and faith as my hammer and smith.

Look at the stars, look at how they shine for you...



my last right toe pinky is now like an overgrown peanut wearing a pink cap,
dogs with brown patches on their faces should not be in a park.

if what we are thinking about is what we usually dream about, then im lost, my thoughts must be a jumble in a tornado. people, things, situations all flash about randomly in my dreams, with utterly no link at all, or maybe it does, just that i've not found it yet. whatever it is, i have NOT seen the message my mind's trying to put across

self control,
fighting 'yourself'
knowing the right,
denying the wrong.
hand over hand,
chains over mind.

is it that hard?

im a fork.

lol

been thinking about the past week and how fast it went by, man, time does fly huh
like, badabing badaboom, a weeks down, seven days, one hundred and sixty eight hours, ten thousand and eighty minutes has passed! like, whoa. and now, theres only four more weeks to prelims, and around three months to THE exam. kinda scary if you think about it

im sorry i tend to talk about exams so much, but its really the most overwhelming thing that seems to inhabit my mind these past few ... months? hahaha, and it has been ever overwhelming since the day i got back my results for the mid year examinations. HAHA

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okay, ive decided what my aspirations are for the future; get a masters before i reach the age of thirty, and right now, try to gain weight and muscle mass. not a lot, but its kind of a long journey, so its counted, haha.

Been reading about some old people who existed last time, man, it leaves my jaw hanging, my mind flabberghasted, and my face wrapped in awe. my mind flashed a gigantic yellow exclamation as th my logic attempted to make sense of what i read, but i realized that somethings are just, literally, out of this world. No, not alien.

ONE person CAN make a difference in the world. haha
subhallah man. KICAPPP

Keane - Everybody's Changing.

to look, but not to see
to hear, but not to listen
to speak, but not to advise
to be, but not to do
to hold, but not cherish
to keep, but not to remember
to say, but not to fulfill
to have, but not to use
to know, but not to change
to live, but not to appreciate
to let go, but not to forgive
to forgive, but not to forget

sit and observe, acknowledge and comphrehend, live and learn
human nature is unnatural, influenced by th evil of hearts,
undo these bonds, be free of this temporaray abode
close the eyes, see with clearest of minds and purest of hearts
life is just as brief as a wink, to be gone like dew in the morning sun,

"Before you speak, listen.

Before you write, think.

Before you spend, earn.

Before you invest, investigate.

Before you criticize, wait.

Before you pray, forgive.

Before you quit, try.

Before you retire, save.

Before you die, give."

Everybody's changing.

Hi, im trying to write without opening my eyes. so far it has turned out okay...

A promise, a responsibility, i cant find the correct word to correctly term what is the actual meaning of "amanah" in, which roughly means to keep one's words and such..
its a heavy burden to carry, the heaviest it seems, to completely follow your word, the temptation to break it is so strong, but as many have said, the greatest battle is not fought with others, but within us. to fight our own needs and not to overcome it. Holy shity, this effect of closing my eyes while typing is kind of scary, like th nightmares i used to have, where everything seems so damn big and im so distant and the sound of th keyboard as i press it. cant really express it in words, buyt thats my worst ever nightmare, the only kind actualyly, its damn freaky, but i gotta get over it, its just a very realistic dream im having whille im awake. shit.

whoa, i kinda went quite far from what i intended to write, but oh well, haha
its time to let go of what we want and really assess ourselves to know what we need. - oh crap this sensation is so damn scary - (my eyes are still closed :D)

okay im going to stop rgight here, its 2am and this shit is freaking me. 3 2 1 OKAY ITS OPEN. woo the feelings good.

okay goodbye, my heads spinning.

MOO :D

square root of three - go search for it on th net, its a poem x)

i thought of what to write yesterday before i slept but i seem to have forgotten it. hmm, what is it again... well here goes cant recall anything right now, not even my homework, other than maths x)

hai, yesterday, i had a taste of what it felt to have people that youre close to depart for a long and hopefully enlightening journey away. It was a joyous yet somehow tearful occasion for my cousins and I, especially considering that we were the closest gang of cousins any family had seen, haha. APAMMM! Yea, one of us, Babar, had gone to umrah with his family yesterday. Pictures still with my cousin, hopefully he'll send it soon. In case you do not know, my family, as in the BIGGG family, not my family as in my siblings and parents, but the whole one, yea my two cousins, my brother and I, are known as geng APAM, but practically everybody, its like you see one, you see the other two or three, haha! Ill try and find a picture somewhere...

cant find a decent picture of us four right now, some other time ah x)

hugs were plenty then, here and there, tears rolled by, but as my dad said, we men dont show, we cry inside. haha, quite true, considering his closest brother is going too...

the end is always not it seems to be, only death is certain

hello,

today, i found out that my feelings is directly proportional to my body temperature.

wake up call, WAKE UP CALL!

it tore my lids wide open, exposed my eyes to the truth.
I NEED TO STUDY, study hard and really really soon.
IF i were to ever want to achieve my dreams of what, entering th JC of my choice.
just relying on last-minutes and night-befores are just not cutting it anymore
consistency man, consistency. THATS what i need.

i know one things for sure, when i DO study, i get quality results, so far that is x)
studied SS for one day and i got 36. though not as good as SOME people, its quite okay considering th amount of effort i put in. History too! Yea, hopefully Bio's as good, haha :)

hearts in throat, heads banging,
feets gone cold, voices ringing.
its time for us, time for us,
to seize the day, strong and fast.

carpe diem

Wohohoho

damn hungry rite now, like seriously.

TODAY was greatly relaxing, paper ended at 0930, played ball and drew a car with great satisfaction, ill show u the progress

LAST NITE. it appeared like THIS.



just a sketch, oh yea, th cars Audi R8

TODAY, after 10 minutes or so of shading, it looked like this.



THEN FINALLY, after 45 minutes, it came to life and looked like THIS, see, my english is quite limited x)



it was practically what i did th whole day man, other than playing Dota and going to tuition x)

i realized that i would only finish something right to the last detail only when in my head i know that it is to be of a certain degree of hmm, nice-ness? x) yea, so i did this for my cousin's poly assignment, cos he can't draw well xD

APAM GAY! thats this name, without the gay lol

and the real thing looks like this.



nice ride huh? :D

till other times then, moo.haha.haha

a Third of the race run
the mid year examinations are coming to an end very soon, with just 3 papers to go.
Through the turmoil and stress we endured during this vital period of the year, we may learn from our mistakes or remain ignorant of the challenges that stand anew, awaiting us. Weaknesses and strengths of each and every individual are revealed as time pass by us in a blink. The time has arrived for us to make a decision, to be or not to be, to go through all the hardships that WILL come and with an end in mind, or to procrastinate and let life lead us. Though it may seem as a big burden, an overwhelming responsibilty, bit by bit it can be achieved. good things come to those who work for it.

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It is a scientific fact that Ahmed Khalil Khan's brain is not very efficient in absorbing scientific, mathematical or linguistic facts when his primary organ for digestion, the stomach is lacking in edible biological substances called food. Thank God that his brain has a very high efficiency rate to begin with :D

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HI, YOU'RE GAY, I'M GAY, WE'RE GAY.

hihihi

urgh, my stomach yearns for food
hadnt had anything to eat since what, 3? damn, how am i supposed to gain weight like this -.-

TODAY SUCKS. justtt because physics paper 2 was difficult. damn it sucks. hope i pass
ON A LIGHTER NOTE, today is the day my bestfriend, SITI KHAIRUNNISA BTE ZULKIFLE, emerged out of her first home since she came to exist nine months before x)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAY :D hope you like th slippers i bought, which looks kinda gay, but alright for a girl x)

I don't feel like studying right now, so i shan't.

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some people can be really a pain in th ass man. enough said

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Bah! i crave for chocolate frappucino from STARBUCKS. mmm

Very nice, how much? :D
WALAO EH TIO RAPE

i see a frog on my screen.

OKAY, been busy, forgive my absence persons/people.
i really have! honest! all the tests and remedials, the tuitions and soccer x)
they eat away your time without you realizing it, and soon, you'll be left with nothing

i shall now bore you with a slice of my life today.
just came back from SIA club with fadhil and hakeem, DAMN THAT PLACE ROCKS.
SOMEONE CHOSE NOT TO COME AH, wonder why, gay bastard lol
that place is cool mannnnnnnnnn. its in Changi and its like above most of the buildings ah. and when you're swimming, theres a bloody nice view infront of you man! DAMN NICE! AND THE SUN SETS THERE! and th gym is on the second level, and its much nicer there, with all the breeze and view. on a fine day with a clear sky, its breathtaking. badabing badaboom and we're playing pool like crazy idiots making silly mistakes like being SOOO confident on hitting the ball, and only barely manage to hit it x) yeayea, i know its like "huh? wats so funny?" but you should have seen hakeem's face or fadhil's, DAMN FUNNY MAN!

yea, its a cool place. go there sometime, ask fadhil

ive been reading some weird books that tell me out-of-this-world stuff that makes me twitch. o.O

soo... apparently, my bro just arrived back home from a five-day trip with my day for a journey of enlightenment, hamid knows a speck about what i'm going to talk about and he would probably close his eyes and go "la la laa..." haha

i got home from SLC, which was damn fun btw, and was greeted with not a hello, not a greeting, but rather, with "KICAPPPP!!" hahaha, well, if i translate that to english, it would mean probably sound something like " I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU AND ITS DAMN AMAZING/BAD!" haha, yea, pretty much x)

well, truthfully, it had been a rather boring five days without my bro and dad, they're like the only two other males in this household, meaning that while there were gone, i was the only one, heh. but really, during that period of time, i miss the constant squabbles i have with my brother, and the aura of superiority and moral uprightness that always radiates from my dad's presence, haha. feels good to have them back (:

so now, im waiting for my bro to get off to phone with his special someone, insert loud and purposeful HAHA, so that he can do some storytelling. every time my brother goes to that certain place, theres always something new to learn, something that would make you just go "HUH!?" and sometimes things that make you humble. haha, theres a word for this kind of matters, but i shan't say it. it makes things a bit too obvious haha.

and so far, he just told me a bit, and i went "HOLY SHITT" you know, seriously, damnn... its just pure amazing how much knowledge is NEGLECTED. the unquenchable thirst for knowledge no longer exists, though to a certain extent i may say. but really, look around, do you see people really wanting to learn something new, something that just makes your brain buzz with excitemet, JUST because its something you have NOT learnt before? haha, i dont.

did DISC thing just now, and i realized something, i'm almost in all. im direct, as in i make comments that hurt to people, frank and to their face. i'm jubilant and ever outgoing, allowing almost nothing to dishearten my spirit. i'm nice to people, without being a suckup or with intentions, but just because i like to see people smile, and lastly, this is true to me, i think a HELL lot, not about me, or my friends, but basically everything that is. haha, well, thats D I S C for you x)

all i have to say is,
tsrsuillybitgonnosriaenc

thhcraeeebmeohnttyhbsehzaeseprabsaseeedkli
dtasmanfogunritpipiimlesis
hhe










this year is soooo gonna go by super damn freaking fast
i dont know what to blog about, thought of stupid ways to encrypt words lol
hence, how this began. its just like playing with numbers, just substituting them with alphabets.

damn, nature has its ways to really survive. it is a LAW of nature that the male always goes first, and that males are somehow easily manipulated by the opposite sex due to some urges. really! lol

i believe that i am a jumble of contradictions living harmoniously in one entity. objibbbb

nownow, 7 things that you guys do not know about me, i dont care who does this, its fun x)

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ONE1- In primary one, i tore off the wings of a butterfly and ate them. HAHA! i was primary one!

2II- I used to be afraid of the wind, it whispers to me. haha

3THRE3- Theres something LIKE a birthmark on the whole top of my chest which looks like africa. HAH!

4OUR- My drawings always have two ways to look at them, two meanings.

FiVe- I have a godfamily somewhere in Malaysia.

SIX6- Death is always lingering in my mind and I think about it constantly. haha

SE7EN- I know of somethings that are not supposed to be known. HAHA! how vague x)

godamn server wont let me, bloody shit
been playing diablo II : lord of destruction, maybe, me n my bro got hit with a serious case of nostalgia when i did. damn, we played this game since like 5 years ago! those were th good times... now its effed up, haha


well. cobwebs hanging from all over th place and calvin's probably a man while hobbes an extinct species of tigers which died of hunger. lol

as you can see, theres no apparent motive for me to write, so i shall just write whatever that comes to mind. which is chocolate
woohoo, i got a choc brownie from fay! well, actually 32 other people got too, but woo! :D haha
yea, about tht, when i got it at first, my first thoughts were to consume it immediately for th recess, then i looked at it again, thought to myself "it looks too nice, maybe at home ah" and when i got home, i thought th same, until today, 2 days LATER. haha its still fresh, i kept it in th fridge :D
heated it in th oven for a few seconds and th smell wafted out like a charm.

IT WAS THE MOST NICEST DELICIOUS-EST BROWNIE I EVER HAD SIA!!
thts good considering i have eaten a LOT of good brownies haha, its like those melt in your mouth kinda chocolate, but the taste not so overwhelming or heaty, and it doesnt crumble but rather quite soft, but not too soft, you know. haha, i stil have abit left. WHOO :D

other than that, i guess V day was actually pleasing to the eyes, seeing people all happy and smiling, haha, i like to see tht, more often. here we are, smiling away, giving away gifts, with friends and family nearby, yet just a few hundred kilometres, a war is raging, a mistake, not a, but rather a few. relatives die, brothers and sisters lost, their strand of life cut, homes lost, people stricken with grief and sorrow. man, we should be really grateful of what we have here, in singapore, though sometimes it may seem that life is agaisnt us, we should really think back, is it? hah, people say, "wth, life is soo unfair!" i would really love to question that opinion, too many times have we taken so many things for granted, yea, its messed up nowadays.

haha, i shall stop that train of thought or ill end up talking too much and give th impression im preaching. SHOO, haha, but it feels good to know that you know some stuff, makes you more, cautious? haha...

yesterday was my aunts b'day, FOOH kecoh betul! we had like indoor barbeque thingys happening, and around 20 people in a single CONDOMINIUM apartment, and mind you, tht is SMALL haha. she just turned 45 and is th youngest among all my uncles and aunts, so they all made fun of her, its comical x)then my cuz and his bestfriend since sec 2, both of em in NTU and NUS respectively, said no matter how hard you study, how often you make notes, its all about whether you listen or not, making sure it goes in one ear and stays inside. man, its cool how just doing so and a bit of studying had brought them so far. like NTU and NUS seh, both smoke, play DOTA like siao, boncet, act like gays with each other infront of me my bro and 2 other close cousins, and talk cock, and still manage to have girlfriends, WOW seh x)

im bad at endings, so this shall just end here x)

he-he-HELLOO

holy crap theres school tomorrow!
time flies so fast.

and tomorrow is just th beginning to th real school week, with remedials and tuition etc. etc. all starting, of th countless weeks we have till the Os.
haish.

its been a dead week, oh wait no, on friday after ncc, jo, ilyas, ahmed, ali, suf and me went to play street aftr so long, for three hours or so.
damn we suck! xD seriously, its been ages since we played on smooth concrete...
and we lost EVERY game that we played, haha! but it was good fun...
then we decided to go to th gym after that, but jo didnt follow cos he had tuition
holy shit man, damn tiring sia. till today my arm still cram cos ali made me do lots of weights xD

its amazing i could still run 2.4km after ncc and 3 hours of street xD
yea, other than that, nothing much, just now went to do maths with siti, then just read a book ahmed lent me. damn good, read it, THE NEVER ENDING STORY by michael ende. i think atreyu's a cool name, dont u think?

there some matters that require my attention now, till then, CYA.
*i dont really know who the 'ya' refers to x)*

hello world.
BADABOOM!
its eating itself.


hallooo, my god, its been like a gazillion years since ive last updated this window, haha! well, nvm, it seems i have some free time today and i dont feel like sleeping, so i shall update just for the fun of it (:

hmm lets see, its been busy, school and all
and currently, theres CCA orientation going on, so can only go back when its over, which is like SIX siaaa. damn tiring, frm 2-6 for three days in a row. damnnn
sleep is such a luxury nowadays.
thank god for WEEKENDS. phew


holy crap sia. O lvls are this year, heh. its okay, ONE long and tall hurdle, and it would be easier if i accomplish it. suffer now and enjoy later huh? (:

so, i shall end it with a note in mind, its th journey that matters, not the destination. peace to all, and may you find peace.

HAHAHAHA

november 14th came and passed, rather quickly, hoho
like finally, im fifteen! pfft, wat a big deal xD
damn, turned fifteen, still looks like some sec one kid, bah.
its okay, time will tell whether i'll look as i do today, later. haha
kinda cool, got a new wallet from my mum, which is MUCH needed cos my wallet's gonna tear apart anytime now... it cant even hold coins -.-
yea, and a game too! from my cousin, given to her by her boyfriend xD
but its cool, cos its quite expensive... and got a surprise when i saw her, she got slimmer XD
nothing much happened then...

then next day went to make IC, damn i look like a child xD
according to SOMEBODY, its paedophilia, cos i look young.
weirdly, my eyes are very different in the picture, very.
even my brother was shocked, they seem to belong to a much deeper person.
no, im not flattering myself, they do! hmm...

whoossssshhh, gna go my aunts nikah soon, its gonna be UBER COOL man,
my g.aunt's rich, so we're gna have a ball of a time there! and theres a cruise! :D

im kinda sad, cos somebodys gonna go off to new zealand on th 17th, for TEN DAYS! :/
im gonna miss her seh :(

HELLO!

its been awhile huh
well, i have my reasons, first of all, ITS HARI RAYA!
wah, im outdated man, that was when? 13th? xD now its the 20th! HAHA!
so, everybodys bound to have received the countless messages wishing hari raya and asking for forgiveness and all, sounds stereotypical doesn't it? haha

AND we got back our results, im actually quite sad, but i know it was inevitable, COME ON, i didnt study, AT ALL! becoming like ahmed, except for the homework part,
hmm.. let us see.

ENGLISH : B4 bah.
MALAY : B4 BAHH!! shit sia, i was aiming for A1 but the compo was just goddamn hard
AMATHS : E8 it was difficult, and look up. -.-
EMATHS : A2 hah! this was quite easy, so no accomplishment here
CHEM : C5 I PASSED! WHOO! i failed during MYE :D
BIO : C5 it was difficult, mehh
PHY : F9 ahh, this was a blow to me, an F, ive never gotten it before, and its DIFF!
SS : A2 WHOO! FEW PEOPLE GOT A, or even passed! :D i must be a freak!
HISTORY : E8 i didnt finish the paper, had a BEEG blunder
COMB HUMANS : C5 not bad, but bad? heh

so it'll be like
| 60 | 63 | 42 | 72 | 57 | 57 | 37 | 36 | 22 | 58 |

YAY! today was fun! went blading, do note, i DO NOT know how to blade, but, within TWO hours, I CAN! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooo! :DD
thanks to somebody :)

right now, alone at home, so blasting winamp, like some freak, you wouldnt want to be here now xD

CHALET! :D
cya later












only time.

HOLY CRAP.

i see stressed people. hordes of stressed people
heads hidden behind books, revision notes strewn across the table
thick multi-coloured files appearing here and there, discussions over issues of either mathematical, scientific, or just linguistic insecurities, tubes of pen, inks drained
people with eye bags of a panda, eyes sore and red, with pale complexion, balancing on the edge on sanity and INsanity, with moods everchanging like the wind.

damn, and to think, I AM NOTHING LIKE THAT! ish. either im retarded or im retarded
so are Ahmed, Ali, Ilyas, Sadiq, and a few retarded people i know.

heh, its been alright, till now. last minute revision and desperate prayers do work, i guess. haha, or maybe i'm just lucky, eh? :)

WELLLL.... back to original motive on blogging at this weird hour, oh, before i forget, today, the 7th of August, is a special day. MWAHAHAha

okay, okay, the SURVEY!

this is gonna be interesting x)

Layer 1: on the outside
Name: Ahmed Khalil Khan Son Of Mohammed Hafiz Khan. long huh xD
Birthdate: 14 November 1992
Current Status: Enlightened, haha
Eye colour: Brown? Black? Dark blue? all i know is, its dark, like me.
Hair Colour: Black

Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: uhm, lets see, direct ah, Javanese, Pathan, Indian, Arab, Dutch, uhh..
My fears: Haha, hmm, the dark? but im getting used to it, so not sure YET
My weaknesses: the word Please?
My perfect pizza: CHEESE CHICKEN, the 2 important C's :D
.
Layer 3: yesterday, today, tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: I NEED TO EAT.
My most missed memories: Playing soccer by the beach with my cousins and bro

Layer 4: My pick.
Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
Macdonalds or Burger King: right now, BK, so nice, so meatyyy x)
Single or group dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Vanilla or Chocolate: Chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: Cappucino? Coffee? i dont mind
.
Layer 5: Do you?
Smoke: haha nah,
Curse: often nowadays, damn.
Take a shower: im not ahmedWHITE x)
Have a crush: (:
Go to school: Temasek
Believe in yourself: yeap :D
Think you’re a health freak: nah, im a junkie, amazingly im still in very good shape :D

Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol: nah
Gone to the mall: DOH!
Dyed your hair: nah, no need to action ah

Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game: noo
Change who you were to fit in: nope. thats just gay

Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: HAHA! yess :D

Layer 9: In a partner
Best eye colour: If it looks good on the person :)
Best hair colour: If it looks good on the person :)
Long or short hair: once again, if it looks good on the person (:

Layer 10: What were you doing?
A minute ago: eating.
An hour ago: praying
A Month ago: hmm, watching tv? xD
A Year ago: playing soccer! haha
.
Layer 11: Finish the sentences..
I love: many THINGS and a certain lady :)
I hide: emotions.
I miss: eating during the day and a certain lady :)
I need: to gain weight!
.
Layer 12: Tag 5
haha! whoever that reads this?
fay?
liye?
ANYONEE xD




this has been fun :D





to a certain someone,
i really hope you'll get better soon, tau?
ill get you something (:

ha-ha-halloo x)

i've no right to ask for forgiveness for the prolonged stagnancy of my blog x)
its either there're better things to do, chasing for time, or im just lazy. hah
but heck, to THOSE who STILL read my blog, i seek your forgiveness, okay? :)
i will TRY to update this window into my life as much as possible, if i have the time :D

wellllll....

its been quite awhile huh. last updated, JUNE 11th. damnnn

most looked-forward event to come:

1 SENIOR SPECIALIST COURSE ; getting, like FINALLY, staff sergeant rank and the coveted lineyard :D

in secondary one, we looked up towards those wearing the lineyard, it was so nice, like ONLY THE top FIVE cadets get to wear em! and now, its my turn! :D haha
and its so bloody nice... ;)

2 next event is like Ramadhan :)


many people dread this specific month of year cos they feel restricted, and yea, unable to do 'stuff' heh. i feel that its actually those special times where religion actually affects the way we behave, talk and think. Its cool. :)

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thats about it, i guess... for events to come.

TODAY. is teachers' day.
it was memorable :)
played some games with class, teachers including, DAMN FUNNY, i know someone is happy over the other side ;) i am, esp cos of ONE game :)
but didnt visit pri. sch and my bro said the teachers asked about me, haha, thts actually nice to hear, (:

AND im sick, ok not very sick, just have a case of "HIDUNG TERSUMBAT" x)
runny nose. its really irritating, loss of appetite due to inability to smell -.-"
didnt have proper dinner, but ate half of the rice. completely no taste, sheesh.
its okay, dont have to worry about me, i always get well soon... :)

-

its been quite messed up these past few days, uncovered the other side of some, heard of terrible news that affects those close to me...

hmm.

ohmyGOD.

stagnant since AGES *looks at date of th LAST post*
dammnnn x)

nevermind, that was last time,

WAHAHA, im back! for a SHORT period of time
AND YESSSSS! IM NOT THAT SHORT ANYMORE! haha, so superficial rite? haiyoo x)

anywayyyyy
to THOSE *looks at th tagboard* yeap, THOSE. people who have seen my blog sink to th bottom of a bottomless black abyss that is called TIME, yea, FINALLY, see its updated! rejoice! :D haha

man. its been hard man. life
all of us are going through it, but with different paths.
but eventually, it all leads to th same destination yea?
BUT THEN AGAIN, as always, people say, "OH, its about th journey, not th destination," aii. education in s'pore so messed up man, too much is invested on th young minds. too much. look at kids nowadays man!

where were th days little children would run around, bare footed, screaming their heads off as they play a little game of CATCH, heh, now im sounding like an old man x)

well, learning is a lifelong journey, so heck th destination man!
no matter how succesful you are, how lavish your house is by th time you're at your forties, how your grandchildren are so successful in their lives and how well they take care of you as you turn 80, man, LIFE IS SHORT. and then again, singapore makes it even shorter. with all th hectic bull we're going through, damn

death is just a new beginnning huh, no matter if you're buddhist, christian or islam, there WILL be something there for us after life. or rather, death. scary thought to be hanging around in a head huh, haha :) no im not INSANE or DEPRESSED, just a little tinker. not thinker, tinker. where you mess with things, to create new things. man tht sounds wrong x)

ahaha, just now was funny, messed with th webcam while talking to SITI KHAIRUNNISA.
you know smth! you get a SUPER COOL effect when u point th webcam at th box where ur webcam image shows up! its an infinity of self imaging! :D

ohkay, its late.
gotta go,
this is not a morbid reminder, but, remember, death is there.

GOODNITE PPL!
*whispers* i doubt anyone will be reading, considering th stagnancy of it all hahaa

sheesh. woke up this morning with a headache.
its been a seriously long time since i last blogged eh.
well, first of all. cos im lazy to do so.
secondly, the holidays got nothing much happening.
movies. go out. movies. bahh

just yesterday watched happy feet with some guys
man, dont judge a book by its cover.that movie was quite good
eh to imagine, muhammad who havent even watched it said it was lousy.
-.-

cool show, short cute furry penguins. x)
and some cool songs in it. tap the feet!
yeahh, its all good
and somemore, im going to escape this monday!
its having a promotion ah.
price $6, from th normal $10 :D

i hate runny noses. keeps me sniffing. so bloody irritating
then sometimes, you know, it leaks. xP
disgusting, yes. uncomfortable, very.

lol, currently using my mum's laptop now,
my bros on the other side playing diablo 2 heh.
wooo, sometime ard next month my new laptops arriving!
my birthday gift from my parents.
THANKS MUM AND DAD! :DD

and then, my dad just bought these freaking huge sub woofers for the comp!
damn its big! whoosh. like the ones you see in PIMP MY RIDE ones. :)
very nice colour black and white.

somehow this is very peculiar for me, and th people around me
im going to secondary three next year right. long pants and all.
but then.. my voice hasn't broken, my apples not yet fruiting. xD
and LOOK! my legs have little! SHORT! hair. x)
late bloomer eh? just wait till next year ok?

with regards.
cya!

OHMYGOD. soo bloody tired mann
been at NCC camp since friday. sunday then come back. foosh
but whoa, that camp was fun sia!

as usual, we all wanted to go for the night walk on the first night.
we wanted to make Hilmi cry/run away cos last year he did both of em. x)
but wah lao eh, the schedule was messed up and it was too late to have the night walk. NVM, next year we'll get Hilmi. :D

then got smth else we wanted to do to Hilmi, but cannot tell ah. NCC state secret. pssh x)

so on the second day, Satureday, we looked forward to going to the beach lah. but then.... got rain, SUPER HEAVY RAIN. crap sey, nvm nvm, maybe god angry cos we all didnt go for the friday prayers. issh. so the whole day we played game ah.
mann we played this game, Concentration, so my squad, Echo, played in the classroom against Foxtrot ah. CRAZY SIA! we ALL sabo this guy ah. Gerald from 2R. while playing his face contort to i dunno wat sia. but dam ugly sia. but still in super concentration. xD

eh, surprisingly rite, the food we cooked this year tasted so much better than last year one sia. last year eat the rice, half cooked lah, mee with no flavour, milo that caused severe diarrhea, and wat lah.. this year nice ah. of course ah, we cooked wat... :D

THEN, for the final night, the most "AUSPICIOUS" event for the whole camp. a "beauty" pageant, Miss Cambridge! OMG man. that event was soooooo bloody GAY. haha
seriously sia. i got the pictures ah. but i dont think they're meant for the public.xD

someday i show you guys ah. FUNNY SIA. the main competitors were, ALI, JO, and ILYAS.
you know wat to expect when this guys join a beauty pageant meant for girls ah. xD
and to think that our master sergeant wanted me to join. OMG man. scary sia... :D

i think because of all the sugar, we couldn't sleep at night ah.
first night. only slept for 2 hours. BUT somehow, the whole day got energy. the last night, ironically, slept for 5 hours, the next morning TOTALLY no energy,
man from 12-3, talk to ilyas and Ahmed White about a lot of things ah. crap sia. xD

thats the main things ah. except for one.

OH YEAH MAN! tomorrow.. tomorrow... :DD
14onth14th

miniature dollies. lol. with claws

ohmygod. its been sucha long time since ive updated.
eons beyond remembrance. sheesh

you know something, the holidays are freaking boring sia
if you stay home, i think i'll be soo flabby by next year! sheesh
its been the same everyday, wake up at 8, shower then go recite the Quran
after that eat, then finally use the computer.
only when got people want to go out then i go out, too lazy ah
and sadly, its been like that EVERY day. heh

dang! i miss school and the atmosphere there, rushing here and there, anxiety.
the noises, the shuffling of feet, even the SSSS-TTUPPIDD! of Mr Sara. haha.
or the complains of everyday people. about teachers or whatsoever. lol
can't wait for next year sia! SECONDARY THREE>LONG PANTS. lol

i seriously dont know why some people cried during the last few days of school.
its like, if you get the same class as most of your friends, good for you then. if not, then, you can always meet up with them, its not like they're going away forever
--- girls... sheesh.. how typical. xD

whoa, the hari raya collections not bad man! a few hundred already. :D
but WHATHELL! some people already use up ALL of their collection sia.
crazzyyyy people...

holy shit people! one of my cousins. his very peculiar, his height is lower than my hip level. yes, im not kidding. eh serious here. he ah, wah lao. dunno why sia, coma sey. scary sia. doctor say he got high sugar level. *shudders* that could lead to COMA, omg. brain dead, body still alive. o.O

WOOHOOO! this friday to sunday, IM GOING TO NCC CAMP! wahahaha!! confirm fun sia! that camp ah, since we were sec ones, that was why we stuck to NCC. fooh, gonna be one crazy camp. :DD

oh oh! yes AHH! finalllly, on the fourteenth of november, i WILL be fourteen! the normal age of SEC TWOS. so late eh. never mind, happy happy! but, oh shit, confirm im gonna be bashed at the camp. DAMN!! never mind never mind...

EHH
byebye ah. :3
see ya next time.
BANG - .

woooh

its been a VERY VERY VERY long time since i updated this thing
very well then, lets get on with it

you know something.
every year, hari rayas like the same for me
but not this year, this year, many of the matriachs/patriachs of the family are becoming sick. when i visit them, my heart wrenches. they look so bad, and yet here i am in my nice costume. thank god im still healthy. phew. =)

and some of the people i usually visit or have been there for the visitings are now gone. theres an air of silence in the house. weird. cause every year, everyone and i mean EVERYONE thats related to my grandma would come by to visit. shes the eldest, so a hell lot of people would come by and the house would be some kind of parade square for everyone. busy people, the noise, the lights, the colours. but its all good.

now, theres only silence. hmm...

normally, we would be booked for the first few days. but now, we straightaway go around visitting. and that, we tell everyone tht its different. last time, there was no chance to go out for long. a few houses, teettt. someone calls saying his coming by. haha rather amusing it was.

anyway, just got back from malaysia on saturday.
man, i didnt realize how fond i was of that place until i visited the place
seeing the garden just infront that me and my bro made when we were sooo young then. and it still lives! with nice flowers blooming.

met the folks there, sure, they're getting old, but they're still the same.
chitter chatter with a lot of smoke. hahaha . sure missed that place
and the little children, the weird people. xD

a dude, Amirul, is one special dude man. its said that if somehow, he slaps someone out of anger, that sad person would die. its said. he's one very mature acting nine year old. seriously. cant describe though xP

then theres his sister, we call her Mira. shes cute. primary one with corroded teeth.
I'd give em all a good toothbrush and some whitening toothpaste for their next birthdays. xD

finally, theres this very little girl, shes 3. we call her Iqa. whoa, her face is VERY VERY fair. and for a 3 year old, she talks a lot. shes a social girl. but theres one very hilarious problem, xD whenever she poops, she just lets it go. xDD
she doesnt say a thing, but somehow she can talk a lot. hahaha

later i'll upload the pics. now cant. dunno why

there too the oldies, they disappeared. =)
but they're still out there, somewhere. *shakes head* kings

hundred billion bottles washed upon the shore.

my my. the exams are over. took me a while to get that.

i'm sending out and S.O.S

damn, from next week onwards, going back late again...
wont be able to break fast with family if so. damn.
and i need to spend money! urghh. 20 days have passed
10 more days people! i like to fast, it cleans the mind.

got to know something just just now in the morning.
it saddens me so,

bahh enough with that. =)

HAHAHA! theres gonna be some kind of post exam activities
for next monday and tuesday, sec 2s gonna have some kind of crappy activities.
HAHA and WE, my friends and i, get to join sec 1s! woo!

nothing much to blog about i guess.

HOLY MOLY!
3 PAPERS DOWN!
ENGLISH, SCIENCE AND MATHEMATICS.
english, was english? nothing much about that.
lame topic though, about thai things.

SCIENCE was fair. HEH. somehow...
alot of people said that Chem was the hardest.
nyett! PHYSICS is! screwed that. -.-

MATHS. BLOODY HELL MATHS.
die sia that paper. paper 2 ah
paper 1 was actually easy. i think.

WHOOTS!
now, ALL that is LEFT IS
LITERATURE>GEOGRAPHY>MOTHER TONGUE( for some ah!)>DNT!
4 more people! ONLY FOUR MORE!

heh some people lucky ah..
dont have MOTHER TONGUE. sheesh, how to speak
you know something. IF, IF, i study HARD. ok a bit late for that.
AND THAT i'm VERY LUCKY, i can get at most 7 distinctions.

history and homec. CHOP!
maths and science. HOPEFULLY +)
geography and DNT. STUDY HARD!
art. if mr chin doesnt screw my mask that is. =D

7. lucky number 7
i feel guilty.
EVERY SINGLE DAY, right after i reach home,
i play this game. and it takes a while to be.
SATISFIED. and after that, IM SLEEPY and HUNGRY
yet, i study. but not that effective...
SO. PUSH ME TO STUDY PLEASE? thank you =)

sheesh, just now went to fadhils house with azhar bg, raidi and the owner himself.
from 2+ all the way until 4, we talked and talked. about a lot of stuff. fooh, got to know a LOT more about them from that. weird sia. talk only no, no games, no music, no nothing. just talk. like girl talk, but boys one ah. haha

ish.
you know something.
i lost freaking 5kg!
heh. doesnt look different. much.
only more visible.
i feel light. woo.

18 more days to RAYA!
until then. SEE YA!

hohohoho! been a long time huh, well

its beeen a nice cold afternoon!
i slept all the way until 1.30pm
whoosh. now my eyes have big dark rings under them
i look like zombies. with hair all standing up
just like the dragonball z people when they powerup x)

phew, this whole didnt puke or anything
actually, i feel rather angelic for the week
except the time when i slept in english class
ISH! nobody woke me up sia! or i didnt feel them
only when ms soh shouted " AHMED!! " then i woke up
i asked if anyone attempted to wake me up, yeap they did
the person beside me, guan hong, she knocked on my tabled,
shouted my name, proded me while gerald kicked my chair. lol
been rather sleepy for the week.

oh mann... i just realized the real exam, as in the papers,
are next week! ishh. monday must start revising in the morn'
even liye has her timetable! good luck getting first! =D
cant wait! woohoo! exams, are just a hurdle. after that,
theres the oasis. holiday! haha! must jump real high =)

been hearing quite a few rantings about people nowadays.
hmm. we'll just wait and see...

okaypeople!itendsherefornow.gotogoandgo=)
byebyeandGOODLUCKforyourENDOFYEARexamsyea?

yeesh. i vomitted. i broke my fast. i'm sick. i feel guilty for it. i have to pay back during Hari Raya. theres paper 1 for english and malay tomorrow. i have not studied completely. i still feel guilty. =(

ok, let me tell you briefly whats fasting all about.

you can't eat. practically everybody knows that. but theres more_ =)

RESTRICTIONS

YOU can't swear/ say bad words.
YOU can't dig your nose. ADMIT IT!
YOU can't listen to BAD music.
YOU can't talk about BAD things.
YOU can't see BAD things.
YoU can't take a whiff of that food to satisfy your starvation.
YOU can't do BAD things.
YOU can't purposely vomit.
YOU can't vomit or else you' ll your fast. thats why.


i don't know if theres anymore. but yea. thats some.of them.
but the good thing is Setan's in hell for the whole month.
so you won't be influence to do bad things you do normally.
and therefore, you'll be better behaved! =) good for me.

and eena says hello!
haha

TOMORROWS PAPER 1 FOR ENGLISH AND MOTHER TONGUE!
and hopefully, i WILL fast tomorrow =)

until then. goodbye!

i hate you carelessness.

been a while since i blogged huh
busy ah =)
this is tiring man.
theres geog project, lit project, sports capt stuff
orienteering competition somewhere in the forest this saturday
wednesday is the BEGINNING of FYEs,
practically the biggest thing is FYE lah
but hell sia, i gotta train for this saturday
its some kind of competition
u have to run around in A forest with full ncc uniform,
look for clues, answer the bloody riddles, all this is the damn black heavy hot boot
and its like 10km plus. dammit

tomorrow the literature projects due, the play
and im JOHNNY! woo! nvm people, as in the group, we can prepare the crops!
thursday, geog projects due. well at least thats one thats going well =)
wednesday is mother toungue malay oral. heh. oral, cmon i talk a lot already =D
next monday is the english paper 1 =)
and YAY!!! the fasting month officially begins this SATURDAY night! =)
shit -.- on the day of competition
sunday all the way until 24th of OCTOBER!
the disturbances of normal days gone! =DDD

see if SOME people can withstand the TEMPTATIONS =)
and people! dont you go around tempting us with your food kays?
if some people cannot tahan then you're at fault. =)
understand?

i think im gonna bring dates for fay.
how long has it been overdue ah? =)
and i think im gonna GAIN weight, i dunno why

WHOOSHHH!! just now had maths final year mock exam paper.
PAPER 1. interestingly, it was not bad, rather good!
CRAP SIA! after the paper only. i told guan hong some things im not sure about
right there and then, she told me ALL my mistakes. soo careless sia!!!!
after that got science chem paper
i didnt study. but it was still okay lahh
last few minutes then i remember all the formulas. -.-

i dunno why im listening to techno so freakishly loud now.
woo fun. =)

hope is just a distraction.
two sides of the story untold
and then, jump to conclusions.
PAISEH LAHH!

i must work harder for the FYE's right? i must. i must

HWAT IS DIS AH?!
what/hwat and white/hwite amah speak

nvm i just do it -D

-1- > Single, taken or crushing?
nyeh. single. gay sia xD

-2- > Are you happy with your life now?
YESSAR xD

-3- > When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with her fast?
Since the right person, no ah. must check first... =)

-4- > Have you ever had your heart broken?
i think somehow, yes. hmm

-5- > Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
EhELLno man. who teach one....

-6- > Would you take someone back if she cheats on you?
i don't think so. bloody hell still got the cheek! *Boosh*

-7- > Have you ever talked about marriage to another before?
another as in, anyone right? yes ah

-8- > Do you want children?
yes...

-9- > How many?
Dunno, god knows how many ah. xD

-10- > Would you consider adoption?
if no matter how long also cannot ah, still no ah.

-11- > If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know her feelings?
show me a sign eh? haha

-12- > Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
uhhh.. consider first ah...

-13- > Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. whaa'? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

-14- > Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe.. yes?

-15- > Are you romantic?
dont know? never been?

-16- > Do you believe you can change someone?
yes. if i try

-17- > If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
paris ah!

-18- > Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
NO WAY. fight fight fight!! circumstances change ah.

-19- > Do you feelings for someone right now?
heh, hmm, ya?

-20- > Have you ever broken a heart?
i seriously dont know, if so, sorry!

-21- > If one day your best friend falls in love with the girl you deeply in love with, what would you do?
talk to him ah

-22- > Are you missing someone right now?
yes! its the holidays. =D


BYE!

holidays. are soo boring.

at least can go school for some days ah.
nyehh

ish! i just remembered. on friday night my cuz, my bro, sis and i
went out to eat at KFC in Kallang with free flow. mmm
i was supposed to get taller there, but then became fat and VERY bloated.
so, on a friday night, who wants to go home so early right?
so went to the Padang ah. got this Singapore Biennuale 2006 thing going on.
went to check it out. mannn the first i saw was this PILLAR of balloons.
soo COOL! it was waving around in the nightsky like one octopus tentacle sey...



it was actually a crap load of gigantic white balloons with little LED lights in them that on and off when people shake, yes shake, the whole thing. very stylish
can change colour too! then also got smth like a performance happening ah. i managed to catch this performance where a dude cross changes his costume to suit to the music his 20+ radios play. kinda weird btw.



towards the end of his 'performance' he was wearing a brandless white underwear jumping around on stage. very traumatic. its like... urgh
nyehh, after that, wah sey! got this band ah. all wear black ah. like act cool only
the main singer was a rather fat guy ah. when they started playing it was fine
until the dude, the singer, started to sing like a heavy metal/black metal band ah! you know those bands where the singer sings in weird voices that is rather hard to figure out? yea, but this one ah, OOSH cannot even make out whats he's saying sia!
wannabe. =P



got this rather cool-looking old school volkswagen caravan/van/car vehicle. nice striking colour XD

the noise pollution was too hard to handle so we went to esplanade. man, the esplanade looks so cool at night, like a fly's eye ah. but cooler? haha yea.
also got a nice view of the city too! so bright. wth im sounding like i've never been there! at night no ah. -.-

luckily got a band playing there. played quite well for a local band sey.
the guitarist also good sey! he even played a solo part with his TONGUE! whoosh i wonder how he do sey. *sticks out tongue* quite good... then i got hyperactive by drinking a lot of coffee at around 12am. whoo!

well that was the best day of the week i had this week.
soo fun, better than doing HOMEWORK at your HOUSE right? =)

mental reminder. should go out more, but waddahell, 3 more weeks to exam. nyehh.
21 more days to fasting month! WHOOHOOO!!!

WHOOPEE!!

i went to my primary school and WHOA! there were many people!
all people so tall, pimply, attitude-ed, emo-ish and blah
but i still recognize em, but hell! they don't recognize me -.-
MY SCHOOL JUST GOT A WHOLE NEW LOOK SEY!! better than OURS!

lets see

NOW, it has 4 computers somewhere at the side of the canteen, called "it corner"
it has a rock-climbing wall!
it has a small mini river/garden and its nice.
ALL the doors of the rooms all become glass! no more wood doors!
it has its own running track!
its bookshop is sooooo damn big, like twice ours!
the hall, the floor is dark brown wood, nice..

MAN. my school ah. i want to go back sey
whoosh, OH! AND!!! im taller than MANY A LOT of girls who
USED to call me shorty lahh. pendek lahh. HAH! im taller!
=D see people, i grow, by a bit also can =DD


teachers day celebration was ouhhhh kay lahh eh.
the concert was a bit dull. only got 2 performances.
but hey, free food! yay? haha
but damn, it rained soooo heavily until ACES cancelled
waste time only arrange all 36 tables.
but heck ah, it was fun!

they tried soo hard to make ms soh cry, but she was on the verge to but didn't
nyehh! it was worth it.

okay, im very sleepy and all my sins are forgiven.
thanks god. WHOO follow the white rabbit!

ISSHH!!!

i think just now NCC was damnnnn fun, tooo fun to be a uniformed group!
laughed and talked about shit sey!
discriminating other cca's have never been that fun. xD
then! YESS!!
we had 2 VERY ULTRA DELICIOUS CHOCOLATE CAKES!
my god, it was sooooo nice. as in delicious.
woo..

then we slacked like hell. yet still good? haha
even while getting punishment, we would laugh and literally roll on the floor laughing. tsk tsk tsk. punishment you know. pumping in hot sun. xDD

andand! i just found that ilyas syahmi tht gay has a weird phobia of the colour of soyabean MILK, and doesnt like anything to do with milk, colour, etc etc. weird seyy
haha,

haha thats if for today's today

yesterday siti, fay, gerald and me went ard shopping. haha more of siti the stressed lah... she was looking for a present. hahaha. like dat also stressed up. XD
ish we were there until like 6++ until fay was late. haha. so me and gerald nth to do follow all the way to serangoon and returned to paris. ha

we talked abt a lot stuff sey. ghost lah, religion, teachers, friends. blahh.
nyeh?

my name is ahmed K, im ahmed potassium. i react with oxygen, then with water
to produce myself an alkali. woo chemistry mumbo jumbo.

a few days ago there was this dance competition at yio chu kang stadium
we all had our own individual shirts with our name. and here is mine =)


whooa! yesterday my bro, my sis and i had to empty out this mushroom bank that my father kept since god knows when. man it was soo heavy for a bank sia... imagine the amount of coins.. took my bro about 20 minutes just to empty out the thing. man there was a lot. A LOT of coins...



after a long time sorting all the coins out, aranging em, counting all of them. here it was. my dad's 'piggy' bank? whoosh! it was at least $500 man! someday i would like to just count all the coins in my bank, and whoa! it totals out to be half a thousand dollars. cool... lol we didnt get a cent x) nvm all of it goes into something good...



i think ive grown stronger from all the rockclimbing i did. xD
damn fun sia! went out with my bro and my 2 cuz. and my bro's frens
wish our school had a wall. man oh man.


bahh today is so damn boring and i got homework. pssh

FAMOUS AMOS>COOKIES>FAY
lol

i want to munch on crumbly famous amos with little chocolate chips that melt in your mouth. mmm. MAN! just now got this presentation about CHOCOLATES and OOSH were the pictures saliva-enticing! chocolate bar halfway melting in a bowl. swirly swirly and warm. CHOCOLATES HAVE SO MANY BENEFITS!

1) they make you happy, bye depression. mm
2) they make you happy. and HIGH
3) they can be used as a massage cream? maybe make you younger! x)
4) they can make you lose pimples. hehe
5) they can make your throat cool. and smooth?
6) they provide energy!
7) they dont always make you fat. ;)

and many many more lahss. see good right?
yet my dad says eating CHOCOLATE makes me DARK. lol
for a while i believed him x)

on the way back home just now.
i looked at my shoe.
its been just one day i wore it.
yet, its getting grey and orange.
i wear out shoes very fast.

then i think.
how this relates to me maybe...
shoes are like oppurtinites and
when i get them, i use them.
dry them out. until all is gone
which is pretty fast
so i think
maybe i should find a way to
keep these shoes, oppurtinities
for a longer period of time.
mroe time, more chances, more oppurtunities.
so...

how do i keep my shoes??

ooo tmr im gonna dance if i have the chance.lol. rhyme

im having problems spelling rhyme or rhythmn. oh-mer-ger

gotta chang calbin and hobbes.

man oh man. just yesterday liye 'predicted' today would be a bad day and there it was
just after assembly, the whole class was detained by mr sara, mr cuthbert, YES cut-h-bird x), and mr iskandar. just because a few of us were late of one just ONE lesson and the teacher HAD to make such a big fuss out of it. nyeargh! then we already wasted our time, not that we would mind so much cause the next lesson was english, then we were checked on the spot. haha. bags, hair, shirt, shoe, everything under the sun. they even said my classmate's shirt was too small, LOL. so all the student leaders had to like check the others ah. mr sara cant understand the words elect, meaning not confirmed. and he even scolded me cause he thought my badge was some other schools one, its corrupted. and i dont have a student leaders badge. i havent got it yet right? the boys weren't so bad, but the girls man, they got screwed for fringes, ear sticks, skirts, shoes and watever they wear or have ah. my friend keefe was detained cause mr sara found pirated dvds in his file, tsk tsk tsk my friend had a damn close shave sia. he brought lighter and u know what comes next with it, but wow he got away with it.they even checked our pencil box. gan chong? or is it kan chong? or watever ah. after all that, we FINALLY went to class, a class that we were supposed to have a test on. and wathell, we get another lecture from our dear form teacher. she was close to tears from wat? embarassment. crazyy. the whole 'lesson' was gone down the drain, not that it wasn't close to that before. such an emotional teacher she is. the rest of the day was half dead. boring. except maths. me and gerald siao =)

just now at 7-11. i saw an amazing thing. a small dude. from temasek primary, presumably from primary 1, yea, wahh he was like ordering his friends and he talked to the person at the counter with such rudeness its almost unbelievable! for a primary school student, he was walking around 7-11 with a $2 note in his hand. man even when i was primary 6 getting $2 was close to impossible! how fortunate of them..
then when his money 'flew' away, he said shit. i thought during primary school saying STUPID was supposed to be very bad? i wonder how they'll turn up.

liye is psychic for bad things to happen, she said i would fall. OMG xD

all these dance practices, tests, projects and homework is going to make me crack some day... but now today, not yet.

TODAY; 11 July 2006

-i danced and sweat a lot. WOO! fun sey.

-siti laughed until i think shes gonna get abs.

-i laughed at fays hairy arms and made for her. AND she beat me as i laughed some more. x)

-i had FAMOUS AMOS! and i shared them with my friends. i'm so kind =D

-the moment i reached school, some people looked at my face, looking forward to seeing it white. lol

-is a very fun day!

whoopee! wazzah!

national day is soo casual
nothing very special
and not many people hang the flag
heh. who cares so much nowadays anyway

i prefer on tuesday
man that day was fun!
so many girls didnt come school eh
skip only

haha had the 3 minutes of fame
me muhd and desmond was so nervous sia.
arghh what to do what to do?!!
man my friend sufyan and his group yuhanis and azhar black
was soo cool. he danced like michael jackson. coolman.
we did a skit
scary movie 5? yea, haha
for my thing, i had to become the ring the ghost
man i had to put a lot of powder on my face
and wear a WIG! but cannot see the face -.-"
and you know the prayer thing for girls
look like a gown. i had to wear tht! and long white sleeves
lol



my wig? x)



boo.

hehe. then i wanted to watch click with ali and fadhil BUTTT
me and fadhil was late and by the time we arrived, was already full house
ali was soo pissed sia! so in the end watched nacho libre! funny man!
but i still think that click wouldev been better
so many temasekians watched! got one girl occupy 20 seats some more! lol

theres always next time.. =)

weekends are veryy veryy boring
especially sundays

nyehh
homeworks not worth doing in the afternoon
the days too hot to play soccer, ill be as dark as crap too
too lazy to go out some more.

soo boring
i want to go to school o.O
woo next week so many free days
ahh shit confirm got homework one

ooo on monday smths gonna be revealed
to somebody in my class
hahaha

yawning continuosly

you know something
ever had this happen to you?
you are walking happily going to cross the road
you are eating or doing some stuff
you see the bus and decide to dash across the road
you are carrying lots of things
and you freaking risked your life to get to the bus
you cross the road like a crazy dude
you see the bus. you sprint
stopping in front of the bus doors, relieved
you are breathing heavily
but what the crap
the busdriver just drives off, not opening the door
you stand there, angry, shocked, tired AND
people look at you thinking "haiya stupid you know this guy, run want to die then never get on bus... haiya" slaps their forehead

ever happened to you?
those bloody bus drivers who do that ah..
shit sey

what is the use of being popular?