Hi, im trying to write without opening my eyes. so far it has turned out okay...

A promise, a responsibility, i cant find the correct word to correctly term what is the actual meaning of "amanah" in, which roughly means to keep one's words and such..
its a heavy burden to carry, the heaviest it seems, to completely follow your word, the temptation to break it is so strong, but as many have said, the greatest battle is not fought with others, but within us. to fight our own needs and not to overcome it. Holy shity, this effect of closing my eyes while typing is kind of scary, like th nightmares i used to have, where everything seems so damn big and im so distant and the sound of th keyboard as i press it. cant really express it in words, buyt thats my worst ever nightmare, the only kind actualyly, its damn freaky, but i gotta get over it, its just a very realistic dream im having whille im awake. shit.

whoa, i kinda went quite far from what i intended to write, but oh well, haha
its time to let go of what we want and really assess ourselves to know what we need. - oh crap this sensation is so damn scary - (my eyes are still closed :D)

okay im going to stop rgight here, its 2am and this shit is freaking me. 3 2 1 OKAY ITS OPEN. woo the feelings good.

okay goodbye, my heads spinning.

MOO :D