It happened during the darkest time of night,
when everyone's asleep and the stars shine bright.
I was awake, with turmoil in my head,
as I writhe, twist and turn on my bed.
Nightmares or distortions of reality, it didn't matter.
It had a stranglehold on my fading sanity.
Wrapped in my blanket, I fought against the persuasions of the voice.
The voice that spoke of evil, disloyalty and cruelty.
When my will hung by a single thread,
I remembered once more the knowledge I have,
and fought it with a renewed spirit.
A renewed spirit in a broken shell.
Alas, peace came to me and I slumbered.
Travelling across lands till I met three.
Three who unveiled the trickery of it all,
and plucked out the trickster from beneath his disguise.

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I have very many strange dreams.

There never seemed to be a single and one dream, but are usually many swirled together, like colours on a pallete. Disconnected from far, but are actually one integrated piece when closely observed. Most of the time, they don't even represent reality in any way, not a place I've been to before. Abstract places from God knows where. A projection of my inner psyche. They say our dreams are mediums for our brain to connect the missing dots, or our final lingering thoughts before we sleep. If thats true, I wonder whats going on in my head in the past few days, strange.

Trance makes me a happy boy.

I don't know man, these past few days, people I know have been sad and they've come to me with their sad stories. I hear them, I feel their sadness, but somehow what I say doesn't work. Its like my outlook over life is just too positive and seems unreal, that people just shrug it aside thinking 'Ahmeds nuts'. Yeah I understand the workload and stress of JC has obviously dampened our spirits but come on, that doesn't mean you have to be all negative, right? Sometimes I wonder, how come I'm happy all the time, then I wonder, why the hell am I thinking this. People nowadays should really be more happy more often in general, its good for their health. Stay gay people

Helloo
Previously I said that the full effects of me pushing my limits has not been felt, yes?
Well, it has come to pass, and damn, im thankful it has. I've been down with high fever from Sunday to Tuesday. I don't get sick often, but when I do, whoosh, its like I've been hit with a truck, haha! There was even a certain fear that I could have H1N1 as I exhibited the classic symptoms but nahhh, I don't think so. I say think cause I didn't go for the checkup, whoops.
But don't worry people, I am well now! Due to my inactivity over the pass three days ( I SLEPT CLOSE TO 24 HOURS ON MONDAY! ) my whole body feels weak, logical? What I actually dread most about being sick and absent from school is that I'll miss a lot of lessons, and that, I cannot afford. Especially when its already so rushed, blueargh. One sentence, Too bad ah, thats life.

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A friend of me spoke to me about how people have changed and that its scary.
I couldn't really say anything cause I didn't know what to say.
Actually, what CAN you say?

Going past your body's physical limitations may be great,
but it sure kicks your ass after a while.

Yersterday:
2.4km run in the morning, then climbing from 4-8pm

Today:
Climbing from 9am - 1pm, full soccer match from 3-5pm

The effects are still not fully felt, but I'm sure tomorrow I will wake up aching everywhere, haha!
Goodnight world, oh my sleepy head.

A breath of fresh air, FINALLY.

Hello denizens of the cyber world, I welcome you back to my dormant domain!
Its been a while since I've last been here, and I have my reasons!
The past two weeks had been very eventful, exciting and ever-changing.

Life is like an ocean, its waves, unpredictable and varied.
We are merely ships sailing on a humble boat, to stay afloat, and not drown.
As every vessel sailing in the ocean, we will someday or another, encounter a storm.
I have sailed past, intact and strong! I thank those who were there to see me through, deeply.

Ohh how quickly I digress!

National Schools just ended and I'm proud to say the team fared excellently despite being a team of new climbers, YEAH! To those who have no idea what I'm talking about, National Schools is a climbing competition held in the past two weeks, consisting of schools from all over the country.
Its the most recognized competition by MOE hence our focus to own it, and own it we did people.

All the medals we received from one day, theres two more!

ands thats less than half the team!

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Reality has smacked me directly between my eyes.

I saw my results and said to myself " WHATHELL SIAA "

I knew this was coming, but damn, my results really sucks.

And for that matter, I have started studying.

Its like Os all over again, but who cares.

We're all in JC for a reason, to get to University, and nothing else.

And how do you get there? Through Hardwork and Discipline.

So yea, there you go, my reasoning :D

B C M E Gp = S U E S E
suese, seuse?

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"The world is too small"

- One who bends the Laws of the Universe.

A whirlwind, thats what I am now.
Chaotic, destructive, in a mess, all that in the outside.
But deep within, the inner peace swells. There is no wind.
Within the raging winds, a soft gale blows.
I have found the peace, the closure, Ive been looking for.
Though this peace comes with a price,
a price my heart accepts so heavily.
But for your sake, I will.
May your beautiful smile remain etched in my memory,
Thank You.
With Love,

Alright, so the June Common Tests are over and done with, most of the papers received and accounted for and such. One word : Owned. It was rather disappointing to see myself get these kind of marks, but oh well, I know for sure, I am responsible for my own learning, so yea, thats what you get.

Reality came knocking on my door the other day. Time is short, and damn, the next exam is as important as it gets. Looking at my current performance, I have to pull up my socks till they become stockings. Shit, this is going to take a lot of hardwork.

Ahh, the sacrifices you make to achieve what you want. At least its worth it, yes?

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Sometimes, the gift of understanding can be both a curse and a blessing.
To be able to read deep within the lines, the know what one thinks as one say.
To know what is truly meant by the words said, spoken, and typed.
To connect, feel and comphrehend the story of others as we listen.
Yes, it may be mere assumptions and that we are wrong.
But the feelings that erupts deep inside you, it can be overwhelming.
Leaving it to be, denying it, they say ignorance is bliss.
But within yourself, you know what the truth is, perceived or real.
It flashes in your memory and in your thoughts, without reason.
Igniting these feelings, the fire you've quelled inside, enveloping.
Alas, we hide them, once again, silenced and sedated.
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Even the weather understands how I feel.
My brother says, it is okay to feel sad,
as long as you don't let it have a grip over you.

My signs are vital, my hands are cold
Alas, it has materialized.
And though I deny it, it strikes a chilling blow to my heart
I am strong, but not all the way through.
Water may break even the strongest of stones.
The ever-growing distance,
like suns expanding in the universe.
I pray it stops, the end of the universe.
Oh, such a dilemma, such pain.

There is a sad cloud hovering above me, though it doesnt rain, it merely brings th dark clouds closeby. It doesnt flash lightning, but a rumbling is heard deep within. The wind blows strongly, and i am sometimes swept off my feet for moments before I bind back to the world. Is there a reason for it?

My tribute to the King of Pop