When you feel so tired but you can't sleep,
you know the feeling?

January's coming to an end, one month down.
Its been the first week, probably the one with the least load, least stress and most time spent not studying.
And yet, it already seems so tiring, so draining. Everyday, at the end of th day, I seem to be crawling to bed, slowly, knowing that once I sleep, a new day begins. But somehow, I'm starting to adapt to this routine of waking up, going to school, study or climb till late, then going home, to repeat it, over again. However, what keeps me going is the random events that occur in school, the laughter of friends, the smiles, the shared burden and experiences that we all go through together. Truthfully, if it wasn't for the friends that I have in school, I doubt I would be, like this.

Well, anyway, its been a long and tiring day, sleep well people.
It is always darkest before the dawn

Sometimes, we forget that death does not come when one is old, nor when one is sick.

Sometimes, we forget that people may just meet their fate at any time.

Sometimes, we forget to cherish this life we have, with distractions all around.

Sometimes, we only remember when it happens.

The gagging in your throat, the hot tears that form.
It is the human instinct to do so, a natural reaction.
However, we must look ahead and understand,
that everything that happens, happens for a reason.

Death, perceived as the end of life as we know it.
The shattering of the mortal bonds that bind, it is the inevitable end for all.
So that they may finally be free, free from this temporary abode we call home.
From Him we come from, to Him, we return.

You see the world through your window
You don’t even go outside anymore
Only feel safe feeling hollow
You think your scars are way too deep to be cured

You hide your heart in the shadows
So afraid to open up to anyone
But I can see your faded halo
And I can make it burn again, like the sun

If you stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light

But stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light shine
You don’t have to be frozen
You don’t have to be broken tonight

I can see your faded halo
And I can make it burn again, like the sun

Just stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light shine
You don’t have to be frozen
You don’t have to be broken

You don’t have to be broken tonight

Tell me those aren't nice lyrics.

Broken Tonight - Armin Van Buuren

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What we see, feel and experience, may vary in how it affects us. It may be bitter, sweet, foul or just pure awesome. More often than not, when we're feeling down and disappointed, we tend to look at the negative side of it all. 

And sometimes, we completely miss the positive side. Surprisingly, what we need to do to see it is just have a change in perspective, to see things through different eyes. Only then can we peel past the superficial layers that hide the true lessons to be derived from such moments.

I am a stubborn boy, and unfortunately for me, I will not learn my lesson until I get knocked down, bashed and trampled upon, only to stand up again to realize what I need to do. For that, I thank God for all the unfortunate things that He has laid upon my path of life, cause, He knows best.

Here we go, once again,
we trod this beaten path.
The path set before us,
will it lead to our destination?

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okay, i lost it, thanks to retarded videos on youtube.

Many at times, we are faced with consequences and results,
that we do not wish to be set upon us, leaving us in wonder, with the question of why.
Many at times, due to this, we become angry, sad or confused,
that we do not understand why and the question tugs at you, what-ifs bubbling in mind.
Many at times, we do not realize, that whatever happens, happens for a reason.
Reasons that for now, we do not comprehend, and are hidden from plain sight,
for whatever happens, happens so that it may benefit us, in ways we do not see.
So I say to You my old friend, you are merely mortal, and it is your nature to feel,
but do not let emotions have a hold of you, for you know, it is the best for you.

Haha, I'm sure this should have been written two days back, but ohwell, the year is a long time and I need more than one night to contemplate on the implications of this span of time on my life

They say things always happen for a reason, yet some are ignorant of this and believe that Life is unfair. Sometimes, in the wave of emotion, we often overlook Reason, and for that, we are lost and don't do right things. Throughout the year, we may have faced daunting challenges, lost something close to heart, stood at the edge of sanity, patience and spirit, swore at the unfortunate things that happened to us and felt an array of negative emotions. Yet, we mustn't forget that in the same year, we may have been blessed with truly wonderful friends that bring light and laughter to our seemingly mundane lives, a purpose in which we strive to achieve, moments that just leave us at a loss for words in happiness and awe, been offered a helping hand and found peace with ourselves. Life is indeed fair, to those who open their eyes.

All that I wish for this year of 2010 is that I may see Reason, and do the Right things. Yeah.