im a fork.

lol

been thinking about the past week and how fast it went by, man, time does fly huh
like, badabing badaboom, a weeks down, seven days, one hundred and sixty eight hours, ten thousand and eighty minutes has passed! like, whoa. and now, theres only four more weeks to prelims, and around three months to THE exam. kinda scary if you think about it

im sorry i tend to talk about exams so much, but its really the most overwhelming thing that seems to inhabit my mind these past few ... months? hahaha, and it has been ever overwhelming since the day i got back my results for the mid year examinations. HAHA

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okay, ive decided what my aspirations are for the future; get a masters before i reach the age of thirty, and right now, try to gain weight and muscle mass. not a lot, but its kind of a long journey, so its counted, haha.

Been reading about some old people who existed last time, man, it leaves my jaw hanging, my mind flabberghasted, and my face wrapped in awe. my mind flashed a gigantic yellow exclamation as th my logic attempted to make sense of what i read, but i realized that somethings are just, literally, out of this world. No, not alien.

ONE person CAN make a difference in the world. haha
subhallah man. KICAPPP

Keane - Everybody's Changing.

to look, but not to see
to hear, but not to listen
to speak, but not to advise
to be, but not to do
to hold, but not cherish
to keep, but not to remember
to say, but not to fulfill
to have, but not to use
to know, but not to change
to live, but not to appreciate
to let go, but not to forgive
to forgive, but not to forget

sit and observe, acknowledge and comphrehend, live and learn
human nature is unnatural, influenced by th evil of hearts,
undo these bonds, be free of this temporaray abode
close the eyes, see with clearest of minds and purest of hearts
life is just as brief as a wink, to be gone like dew in the morning sun,

"Before you speak, listen.

Before you write, think.

Before you spend, earn.

Before you invest, investigate.

Before you criticize, wait.

Before you pray, forgive.

Before you quit, try.

Before you retire, save.

Before you die, give."

Everybody's changing.

Hi, im trying to write without opening my eyes. so far it has turned out okay...

A promise, a responsibility, i cant find the correct word to correctly term what is the actual meaning of "amanah" in, which roughly means to keep one's words and such..
its a heavy burden to carry, the heaviest it seems, to completely follow your word, the temptation to break it is so strong, but as many have said, the greatest battle is not fought with others, but within us. to fight our own needs and not to overcome it. Holy shity, this effect of closing my eyes while typing is kind of scary, like th nightmares i used to have, where everything seems so damn big and im so distant and the sound of th keyboard as i press it. cant really express it in words, buyt thats my worst ever nightmare, the only kind actualyly, its damn freaky, but i gotta get over it, its just a very realistic dream im having whille im awake. shit.

whoa, i kinda went quite far from what i intended to write, but oh well, haha
its time to let go of what we want and really assess ourselves to know what we need. - oh crap this sensation is so damn scary - (my eyes are still closed :D)

okay im going to stop rgight here, its 2am and this shit is freaking me. 3 2 1 OKAY ITS OPEN. woo the feelings good.

okay goodbye, my heads spinning.

MOO :D