After watching a few hindustani movies, which were th kind of movies that I grew up to, I realize that it has actually influenced me greatly in how I am as a person. In the traditional movies, th stories were usually about love, which is typical of a hindustani movie, but it also explores the traditions of family, morals and values, especially that of respect and honour. 

Recently, to relieve myself of stress from studying so intensively, I managed to watch four hindustani movies and mind you they're all close to three hours long. (My Name Is Khan, Rab Ni Bana De Jodi, Munna Bhai and Munna Bhai 2) Makes me wonder how I even manage to watch them. But anyway, as I've said earlier, each of them explored similar branches of life. Surprisingly, I found myself able to associate closely with the characters in each movie, which enhanced the movie experience to the point that I teared in all of them. There were sad movies. Wait, no. Sad is a sweeping statement. Each movie had a general storyline where the main dude is basically a nice guy, but as always theres always a flaw in them, be it them suffering from autism, being a geek or even a don. So they're nice guys and yet shit gets thrown at them, y'know? But the beautiful thing about these movies are the little things that they do and portray, showing them overcome their struggles and win over someone's love or respect. 

Life Lessons learnt from Hindustani movies:

1) Patience is a virtue. Life may seem unfair when you look at it closely, but take a step back and you will see, for everything, there is a reason. Just needs a little time and perseverance to understand.

2) Respect others and eventually they will respect you. Eventually. Tied to the first point, earning respect takes time, but it is a worthwhile effort, one that brings much ease in the future.

3) Love may not necessarily be clear. Love for one may not be explicitly displayed, but human beings have different ways of expressing their feelings. The sweet words whispered by a lover or the scoldings from a father, there are but one and the same.

4) Always keep to one's words and be honest. It is a easier to tell th truth and seek understanding than to lie and always keep lying. Holding back the truth may hurt in the long run.

5) Family ties and strong friendships are things that may get damaged, but it will never break, as long as it is sincere and based on truth.

6) Material wealth is not everything. Sometimes, the most valuable of life treasures are not bought with money nor are they pegged a monetary value.

7) Always do the right thing, even if everyone else isn't.

Oh well, here it is again.
But wait, theres a twist.
Not a twist, but rather a slight addition of weight.
No longer just another exam, for now, it holds a measure.
To indicate,
To indicate whether we're  ready to take this seriously,
whether we can prioritize and realize what is important,
and whether we are prepared, prepared to give it our all.
Albeit, not an accurate one, but it IS still a measure, yes.
Hmm, such dark times we live in, currently.
All the stress, it has been piling,
on all of us, thats for sure.

Step 1 : Take a deep breath.
Step 2 : Let that shiver run down your spine.
Step 3 : DON'T LOOK AT THE CALENDAR.
Step 4 : Clear your head, and let go off all the unnecessary distractions
Step 5 : Focus and do the shit that needs to be done.

Calvin describes this as a marathon,
and a marathon it is indeed.
We're all competing, but hey, who said we can't help each other out yea?

Allez guys,
The important thing to do right now is to keep on going, to keep on pushing,
no matter how slow.

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Every time it gets close to a major exam, I blog about it.

Yesterday, or rather, two hours ago, was one of my bestfriend's birthday, Syed Fadhil Yunus Al-Sagoff.

Its a rare occasion that we, being my other bestfriend, Muhammad, and I to celebrate his birthday considering how he's always overseas when its his birthday, but finally, today, it isn't!

It was a simple surprise, we just got him a simple chocolate cake, surprise him at his house followed by dinner with his family and just time to chill together. Ahh, the beauty of the simple things and the joy it brings. Despite the fact that his brother accidentally blurt it out to him, he still played along, how typical. A simple celebration, just the three of us and his family. Six years man... 

Its a joy to always know that there will always be these two guys with me, apart from you guys, who I can always turn to to find comfort, share my thoughts and problems, and just have fun with. We've been through shit and good times together, and all this time, despite the squabbles we had with each other, despite the girls that we had, despite the different schools we ended up in, we still stick with each other, knowing that the companionship we have is irreplaceable.

Irreplaceable. 

Matchbox Twenty - Disease

Feels like you've made a mistake, 

you've made somebody's heart break.

 Now I have to let you go, 

I have to let you go.

You'd have to stay, 

on every one of my good dates. 

But I'm stronger than you know, 

I have to let you go. 

No ones ever turned you over, 

no ones trying to ever let you down.

Beautiful girl, I can't breathe.

I got a disease, 

deep inside of me, 

makes me feel uneasy with it. 

I can't live without you telling me, 

what am I supposed to do about it? 

Keep your distance from me, 

don't pay no attention to me. 

I got a diseasee. 

All that has a beginning, has an end.

Every chapter in Life will eventually come to a close,

Its the essence of it that will last forever in all of us.

A lasting imprint on our hearts and minds.

The laughters, the scowls, the vulgarities,

the jokes, the intimate conversations,

the merry and sometimes crazy outings,

the hours spent mugging together, 

the intense discussions,

the climbs, the falls,

-you guys know what we've been through yea..-

I don't exactly know how to place these feelings in words,

As I reminiscence of all the moments, be it a bitter or sweet memory,

no words come to mind, 

. . .

Just a strong feeling of attachment and belonging,

to the people whom I've grown to love and trust,

people, who despite their unique quirks, has bonded together so closely,

to say that we're a mere club would be an understatement, an insult even!

Temasek Junior College Climbing Club 09/10

For once, I have no words to speak.

Only to smile.

(:

Human beings are adaptive creatures, able to adapt to many environments, and all that it takes is their will to do so.

Adaptations occur due to a necessity to do so, a measure taken in order to survive or to thrive in an environment.

In life, with ever-changing circumstances, it is crucial to hone and master this advantage.

Choices, choices, choices. Decisions based on opportunity costs. What does it take to make one?

The weight, insurmountable.

But alas, when the moment comes to change, we must, or we risk losing control of the situation we have for so long grown comfortable to.

Change, and adapt.

Live and let die.

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You rest your head on empty pillows,

wake up and open your eyes.

ISN'T IT JUST BEAUTIFUL?

I think, I think

Tiles are like people,

Many at times, we let all the

bitterness, cold, and bland

parts of life to veil our true colours

and our true nature too

and maybe, just maybe,

we just need to let someone spray us 

with high-pressured water!

Rid of all them dirt and stains

So we that become all nice again,

yes? 

Sometimes, sometimes.

24-25 April 2010
Probably, THE weekend to remember
Full of awesome things happening, of astounding achievements and satisfaction
This is for the team. Temasek Junior College Climbing Club - TJCCC

Yishun SAFRA

For the past month, all the trainings were held here with consideration that it would benefit us.

The journey was troublesome and time-consuming, but alas, it has bear fruit

Top Three for Male and Female Difficulty for A Div.

Honestly, one of the most proudest achievement.

Overall A Division Champion - TJC

In the end, it all goes back to everyone who is TJCCC, 

every individual who contributed, supported and trained

We win, as a team

as a family,

woots.

Ohhh man this week has been one of THE most tiring weeks, EVER.
Though I'm unsure why, ever since Monday, the days seem to slog by so slowly and I would go home utterly tired, mind saturated and feeling grumpy, haha! I just need one whole weekend of rest and study, maybe.
BUT, thats not going to be anytime soon yea, NSSCC is happening, WHOOO!

Last weekend has proved worthy of mention with Chris getting CHAMPION for individual speed category!
Man, the atmosphere was pure electric! Especially so during the final round to determine the champion. It felt as if time stood still and everyones eyes were directed to the wall. Everyone holding their breath simultaneously, hearts racing, expecting their hopes to be turned into reality, oh such a great moment. Though, nothing beats the pure joy when Chris's hands were raised, indicating him as champion, HOLY SHITTTT.

When Chris got first, it was all smiles mann

The Speed Team of TJCCC

Check out Sherwin, Haha!

Anyway, now the focus is on whats happening for THIS weekend, the difficulty category being the main focus. Just gotta do our best, for it is a FACT that we have trained hard for this,

ALLEZ TJCCC!

Dreams of beautiful buildings taking my breath away

Of hope in a situation of hopelessness and the rewards for a sincere heart

Of strength from within emerging to overcome trials met

Of dreams achieved and of lasting companionship

Of life with its ups and downs and how for every hardship there is a reward

Of the journey undertaken alone

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A barrier of stone keeps the waters at bay

However water erodes even the strongest stone

From the soft lapping of water to monstrous surges

Bit by bit they eat away at the foundations 

Till when will it last? 

Till when will the stone hold the waters at bay? 

People always say that God works in mysterious ways.
Yet, why look so far when sometimes,
even people work in mysterious ways.

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Far too often, we tend to judge others too soon before light of the circumstance can be revealed fully.
Years upon years of education has taught us to make intelligent deductions based on current conditions.
However, sometimes, we are wrong, and all we needed was to be a little bit more patient, just a little bit.
When faced with similar circumstances, we make our judgments based on previous outcomes.
When faced with new ones, we make them based on guesses and expectations.
What our heart whispers, it is inevitably reflected in our words or actions.
Hence it is without a doubt that to rid ourselves of this tendency to judge,
we must try our best to squelch them before it materializes fully within us.
Ah, such complexities within us, the eternal clash between the heart and the mind.

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Its been awhile since I've last sat down among elders and just silently listened to their tales.
To the point that I have semi-forgotten how much there is to learn from them.
I will try, to speak, only after I have listen, listen to others, listen to myself.

Peel the layers and find something beautiful.
Looking across oceans and mountains to see,
you might just miss out what lies just ahead.
Even in calm waters, there may be danger lying in wait.
Extinguish the spark before it grows to be fire.
Words spoken can never be retrieved back, think before you speak.
Even if the truth hurts, it is better to tell it than to lie.
Say what you mean, and mean what you say.
Love all, trust a few

Lets.see.if.hardwork.pays.off.Lets.hope.
No.expectations.just.hope

The.frustrations.that.exist.
simmer.out.of.sight.never.out.of.mind
unstable. reactive.and.powerful.
easily.warping.to.more.sinister.forms
quell.them. quickly.hurry.
seek.the. peace.and.see.the.calm.
speak.not.in.anger.
fury.in.words.their.sting. long-lasting.
still.your.mind.and.your.heart.
in.th.midst.of.the. hurricane.lies.the.inevitable.tranquil.

....

Sometimes.sometimes.things.may.get.overwhelming.

Through.the.sweat.and.tears.remember.the. faces.that.we.see.

Think.of.them.these.people.who.seem.to.always.be.there

and.maybe.it.will.be.easier.to.bear

I want to learn how to cook.
To me, cooking is a lot like making art.
There is no proper definition of perfection, it is as how you imagine it to be, or in this case, how it tastes like.
Also, I find cooking strangely appealing cause its one of those things that has to satisfy an individual at the sensory level and also on a deeper level. Just as it is for art, in cooking, the dish has to be appealing to the eyes, the colour of the ingredients, the way they're arranged, the aroma, the texture of the food. Of course the deeper level would be the actual taste of the food. To add to that, no one dish can appeal to all, like how a piece of art cannot appeal to all. It makes people, especially Me, happy. I like to make people happy, and I want to learn how to cook.

AND TOMORROWS MARCH COMMON TESTS.

I.dont.know.why.but.somehow.I.enjoy.th.exam.periods.

Its.like.theres.an.obvious.purpose.or.result.from.studying.

a.motivation.or.drive.to.do.so.one.that.i.enjoy.strangely.

I.admit.I.like.to.study.it.keeps.my.mind.sharp.when.usually.its.all.over.

However.this.only.happens.during.th.exam.period.

anytime.before.or.after.ohh.its.a.different.feeling.haha.

but.right.now.whats.important.is.to.have.a.gauge.of.how.I'm.doing.

lets.hope.all.this.studying.will.pay.off.for.it.is.my.greatest.fear.it.does.not

lets.hope

AND.WHOO.I.LOVE.HOLIDAYS!

it.feels.good.to.wake.up.with.th.sun.above.th.horizon.truly

I.gotta.feeling.that.all.th.hours.of.sleep.has.made.me.grown.hahaha

though.th. effects.of.oversleeping.are.showing.i've.turned.into.a. black.panda

how.awesome.

Th.fire.that.flows.in.th.veins.

Th.wind.that.fills.th.lungs.

Th.water.that.holds.th.bones.

Th.earth.that.forms.th.flesh

Th.ensuing. clash.of.the.heart.and.the.mind

Th weather has really been punishing these past few days,
and its really affecting my thinking.

Once again, I have come to th realization that hardwork pays off and you can't just depend on your intelligence.
I seem to always forget it. Usually, I'm lazy, but that doesn't mean I don't do my work, I just don't do additional work that I'm supposed to, in order to get that evasive A. But, looking at how this years going to be probably one of th most important year of education, I've decided to start studying. Not bad not bad. Its also hugely because of the release of the results for A's last Friday. Looking at the faces I saw, some happy, some sad, some accepting, some stoic, it got me to realize,

"ah whathell, lets do this shit."

Mercury Rising! The past few days has been HOTHOTHOT.
Though, it is not related to my prolonged disappearance.

Life, no, School, has been increasingly busy, filled with incomplete tutorials, confusing lectures, datelines and more tutorials. Apart from that, trainings getting more intensive in lieu with th upcoming competitions (THIS THURSDAY!) and hence, whenever I am not dead-tired from training, I would be busy with school, and the cycle repeats itself. So there you go, my reasoning for my absence.

Its already March, time is sure flying by. Before we know it, BOOM, its already the highlight of th year.
For that, I have diligently been consistently catching up and revising my stuff. Its good you know, that despite the time spent studying, when it comes to crunch time, you feel somewhat prepared and less stress. So heres to doing stuff beforehand and ignoring being called a Mugger! There is a debate that exists regarding this often misused term ; Mugger. You see, in my opinion, the term mugger arose from the situation where one studies into the wee hours of th night with a MUG of coffee or whatever beverage of preference to sustain you through the night, hence th term mugging. The act of studying till late with something keeping you awake. However, based on others, one is a mugger merely when one is studying, which to me is ridiculous? Oh damn, why am I wrapping my mind around such trivial and insignificant issues...

Anyway, on a more significant topic, GRAVICAL IS THIS THURSDAY! First Competition of the year for the  National Bouldering League (NBL). The competition that begins all competitions. I can't deny that Ive been looking forward to this. Its like, running a race you know? A measure of how good you are, albeit sometimes inaccurately, but a measure nonetheless, in comparison to others. I am a man of competition, though not aggressively, but its just something that spurs me on. I'm sure TJCCC will do well man, WHOO!

Ahh, my energy has come to an all time low after today, 400m + 5000m = Damn.
So goodnight world.

This is a drawing by one DDzim on DA.
awesome is it not?

To those who know me, know that I love to draw.

Its a natural thing to do for me, fingers wrapped around a pen/pencil and drawing, be it on paper, or not. 

Thoughts flow through lead, materialize through surface.

Its a form of expression sometimes, a window into my head, the untangling of the swirl of thoughts in there.

The reason why I draw are not a lot, simple.

Its to please, to fulfill, to have something to do when I'm bored, however, the meanings, that, is a different thing.

A haven in the storm of life.

A place where Life comes to a still.

The complications of life just dissipate into the air.

Its really a marvelous place, the Bamboo River.

Flower petals always up in smoke,

Its like a perpetual high, where time ticks by so slowly.

The rigidity that Time always has on our lives, seem to melt away.

A pocket in the Universe, detached from this world.

Magical places/things reside in the world,

you just have to open your eyes.

Sprained my ankle in a strange manner, really sucks cos now I can only limp really slow, or hop with one leg.

AND, next weeks road run, awesome.

When I cannot study when I plan to, I draw. This has been something which has been in my head for sometime now, just didn't have th time to draw till just now. whee.

Hi, its been awhile hasn't it?

Its February. Second month of THE year. Kinda fast if you ask me, but oh well, everybody has 24 hours each day. Slowly picking up the pace, I know myself, I take awhile to start, anything, and even then, it'd take me some time before I eventually pick up th pace. This encompasses academics, thought-process, GROWTH, and yea, many other things I guess. Strangely, I'm beginning to enjoy school, naturally, it has become part of my system, this routine, expectations and whatnot.

So, the J1s have arrived, settled and ended their orientation! Even though it wasn't mine, not anywhere close considering I'm not even an OGL, it was fun actually. A breathe of fresh air, to say the least. New faces, new potential and new personalities. This years going to be an interesting year and I REALLY hope that we get hyper/enthusiastic/imbalanced juniors for TJCCC, damnnn, its going to be AWESOME.

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Today, my Father turns 50.
Normally a stoic man, he doesn't show much affection.
Hard to crack, he has been through much difficulty.
Rarely do I ever hear or see him show his emotions apart from anger.
However, when he said thank you to my brother and I as he was about to enter his room,
It affected me quite deeply, in a positive way.
Beneath that thick hide, lies someone who's quite sensitive, though he may not show it.
Yea yea, I might sound slow for not realizing this as a normal human personality,
but he's my father and thats rare. So yea, Happy Birthday Aba, I hope you are happy.

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A chip of the old block, I realized that I'm quite similar to my dad when it comes to this emotions thing. Haha

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep,
you know the feeling?

January's coming to an end, one month down.
Its been the first week, probably the one with the least load, least stress and most time spent not studying.
And yet, it already seems so tiring, so draining. Everyday, at the end of th day, I seem to be crawling to bed, slowly, knowing that once I sleep, a new day begins. But somehow, I'm starting to adapt to this routine of waking up, going to school, study or climb till late, then going home, to repeat it, over again. However, what keeps me going is the random events that occur in school, the laughter of friends, the smiles, the shared burden and experiences that we all go through together. Truthfully, if it wasn't for the friends that I have in school, I doubt I would be, like this.

Well, anyway, its been a long and tiring day, sleep well people.
It is always darkest before the dawn

Sometimes, we forget that death does not come when one is old, nor when one is sick.

Sometimes, we forget that people may just meet their fate at any time.

Sometimes, we forget to cherish this life we have, with distractions all around.

Sometimes, we only remember when it happens.

The gagging in your throat, the hot tears that form.
It is the human instinct to do so, a natural reaction.
However, we must look ahead and understand,
that everything that happens, happens for a reason.

Death, perceived as the end of life as we know it.
The shattering of the mortal bonds that bind, it is the inevitable end for all.
So that they may finally be free, free from this temporary abode we call home.
From Him we come from, to Him, we return.

You see the world through your window
You don’t even go outside anymore
Only feel safe feeling hollow
You think your scars are way too deep to be cured

You hide your heart in the shadows
So afraid to open up to anyone
But I can see your faded halo
And I can make it burn again, like the sun

If you stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light

But stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light shine
You don’t have to be frozen
You don’t have to be broken tonight

I can see your faded halo
And I can make it burn again, like the sun

Just stay for a while
Let me hold you tonight
Just open your eyes you will see the light shine
You don’t have to be frozen
You don’t have to be broken

You don’t have to be broken tonight

Tell me those aren't nice lyrics.

Broken Tonight - Armin Van Buuren

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What we see, feel and experience, may vary in how it affects us. It may be bitter, sweet, foul or just pure awesome. More often than not, when we're feeling down and disappointed, we tend to look at the negative side of it all. 

And sometimes, we completely miss the positive side. Surprisingly, what we need to do to see it is just have a change in perspective, to see things through different eyes. Only then can we peel past the superficial layers that hide the true lessons to be derived from such moments.

I am a stubborn boy, and unfortunately for me, I will not learn my lesson until I get knocked down, bashed and trampled upon, only to stand up again to realize what I need to do. For that, I thank God for all the unfortunate things that He has laid upon my path of life, cause, He knows best.

Here we go, once again,
we trod this beaten path.
The path set before us,
will it lead to our destination?

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okay, i lost it, thanks to retarded videos on youtube.

Many at times, we are faced with consequences and results,
that we do not wish to be set upon us, leaving us in wonder, with the question of why.
Many at times, due to this, we become angry, sad or confused,
that we do not understand why and the question tugs at you, what-ifs bubbling in mind.
Many at times, we do not realize, that whatever happens, happens for a reason.
Reasons that for now, we do not comprehend, and are hidden from plain sight,
for whatever happens, happens so that it may benefit us, in ways we do not see.
So I say to You my old friend, you are merely mortal, and it is your nature to feel,
but do not let emotions have a hold of you, for you know, it is the best for you.

Haha, I'm sure this should have been written two days back, but ohwell, the year is a long time and I need more than one night to contemplate on the implications of this span of time on my life

They say things always happen for a reason, yet some are ignorant of this and believe that Life is unfair. Sometimes, in the wave of emotion, we often overlook Reason, and for that, we are lost and don't do right things. Throughout the year, we may have faced daunting challenges, lost something close to heart, stood at the edge of sanity, patience and spirit, swore at the unfortunate things that happened to us and felt an array of negative emotions. Yet, we mustn't forget that in the same year, we may have been blessed with truly wonderful friends that bring light and laughter to our seemingly mundane lives, a purpose in which we strive to achieve, moments that just leave us at a loss for words in happiness and awe, been offered a helping hand and found peace with ourselves. Life is indeed fair, to those who open their eyes.

All that I wish for this year of 2010 is that I may see Reason, and do the Right things. Yeah.

People are like bottles
You can see them, for what they are
sometimes their colours and even the texture of the liquid they hold within.

However, if you never open the bottle cap,
you'll never find out the taste of them, of how they truly are.
No matter how much you think you know how it is, its never truly assured, until you do so.

Only until the first drop,
only then can you understand and comprehend,
what they hold within themselves, only to those who are willing enough to open them up.

Today had been a rather long day, and the end has yet to come.
Today was the end of the three day chalet at Sentosa that we, TJCCC had, which left me with funny moments, a very hungry stomach and unforgettable memories.
Today, my uncles and aunts came back from their pilgrimage to the holy land of Mekkah, which is extremely significant as it is their first time and I am truly joyful for them.
Today, my cousins, some friends and I caught Avatar, which was probably the highlight of the day.

Caught Avatar in 3D.

It is TRULY, a feast for the eyes. I may be exxagerating as it was my first time, but I have never been so excited to watch a movie, ever. Apart from that, the level of anticipation was quite high as the movie had had some good reviews regarding the stunning level of detail and realism in the movie world. True to every word, it was spectacular. Well, considering $700m was spent to make that movie, I'm not surprised. It raises the bar for the movie experience. It got me completely immersed into the fantasy world brought about by the director, whose name I do not remember. Apparently, the dude had done his research in order to make the world of Pandora ( the alien planet ) as realistic as possible with regards to the biological structure of the organisms depicted. That, coupled with stunning graphics, makes the movie captivating, leaving me in awe.

Despite the alieness of it all, the movie actually portrays more humanity than meets the eye.
It shows the unlimited and unsatisfiable human desire to have MORE, to drain every drop of resource and look for others elsewhere. The movie brings across the message of how far some people will go to get wealthier, and the adverse effects it causes, directly or indirectly. There are many branches of life that can be explored here. How one's actions can cause ripples and unforeseen consequences, or how without self-control, one will end up destroying one's self. Also, to how greed CAN be the cause of all evil. On the other hand, the movie also explores the more positive side of humanity, which is to defend what is yours and what your treasure, the power of unity and perseverance through tumultuous times and of course the choice over matters of the heart, and matters of the mind.

However, in my opinion, an angle which was explored rather explicitly is the discovery of one's identity. As we mingle around with different crowds, we sometimes find ourselves fitting different images to our character, and thus letting people have different expectation of us, different set of responsibilities and different choices to make. It is easy to get lost in the storm of society and forget who you are and what you believe in, especially in such a modern and metropolitan world such as Singapore. People show different sides at different times, and if you're a friend who has seen many or almost all the sides of a friend and still be able to accept them as who they are, give yourself a pat on the back. Sometimes, when friends think friends have changed, its just a matter of environment and adaptation, unless that friends really screwed up yea?

Oh yea, Merry X'Mas to the many who celebrate it, HOHOHO!

Its been awhile since Ive felt detached from the world, and finally I did.
In an unfamiliar environment, no one I knew, no one who knew me. No one to talk to, just silence.
Its moments like these that bring about much contemplation, and often, escape from the bustle of Life.
Its just you, thoughts floating by, with the absence of interference, beautiful.

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Wow, yesterday, could be described as a feast, truly.
The amount of food I ate yesterday was astounding, by my standards.
In chronological order,

A bowl of cereal with milk and a cup of milo
2 soft boiled eggs and a cup of milo
A chocolate pancake
A plate of rice with curry chicken, fried eggs and potatoes
A plate of bryani rice with chicken, mutton and potatoes
A large double chocolate frappe
A chocolate cake
A bowl of Kway Teow

and the best part,
and the end of the day, as I was about to sleep, close to 1,
I was hungry.

Some people at some point of time, have told me that I'm too nice, that sometimes, I let people get the better of me, and let them manipulate me, or just that I tolerate bullshit that I don't deserve. My response was a simple, "HUH, where got?!" or "When siaaa?". I've pondered on this notion for quite some time now, wondering. I guess, it is not within me to hurt people, emotionally that is, haha. I doubt I can muster the strength to break another's heart. However, this does not mean that I cannot tell them the painful truth if it need be. Despite the irritant that I may be, it would never be my intention to dampen their hearts or cause sorrow to seep into their hearts. I merely am like that, so that those who are blue, may forget their sadness and replace that with annoyance. I would rather be the one who gets broken-hearted than to break a heart, and I have. Sometimes I wonder why. It must be the fact that I know that I can and will heal from it, no matter how deep the pain is. And with this knowledge, I often take the blow, for I would never want to imagine another to endure such pain. Don't know why this came to me while I was showering though. Hahahaa

Hi.
I like to make people Happy.
So I do.

And today, I made a friend of mine, very happy by doing something that will make HIS friend happy.

A Rose.

Chilled with him for close to four hours, just sitting there, talking, drawing.

I find it more enjoyable to just have a chat sometimes yknow, get to know people better.

Its a rewarding feel at th end of it all, something gained.

Enjoying Trance

THE wall.

Its funny how a simple image, sound or word can bring about memories that have long been buried.
Not out of fear do I cringe, or tense up, but only because of the memories which I have kept deep inside.
I am, a man of memories.

A dark phase in one's past, may be the spark required to enlighten one's future.
That I have learnt, and cruelly I may add.
It is simply a law of the universe that you cannot gain something, without losing something else in return.
A simple law that more often than not, is overlooked and misunderstood, always forgotten and ignored.

When overlooked, it breeds greed. To have more, without giving any away. Such is the nature of Man.
When misunderstood, it invites conflict. To not understand, and simply accept, brings much infuriation within.
When forgotten, it sparks anger. The obsession, to find a reason for loss, when you do not see the gain.
When ignored, it ends bluntly.

The Past holds sway the way I lead the Present that I may have a Pleasant Future.

I will you Open like a piece of FRUIITTT!

By far, th highlight of th holidays, TJCCC's climbing trip to Batu Caves, KL.
Extraordinary experience, awesome people, eye-opening views.
It was really, like a dream, as if it was only us climbers, and th climbs.
As expected, such a trip provides a platform where th teachers, Mr Kao and Ms Lim, and of course our dearest coaches, Phillip and Kelly Lim, are on th same level as us, in terms of interaction and closeness.
Th stupid things that happened, it all made us closer and it really gives me a warm feeling, to see how we are like one huge family, whoosh.

And the climbs, OH THE CLIMBS.
Sure it looks scary at first, but damn, it is truly love at first climb. It was a totally different feeling, in terms of exhiliration, fear, composure and satisfaction. The freedom of exploring as we climb, its like we are a ship in th middle of th sea, where our direction is both determined by the external factors as well as our ability to direct our own movements. It was especially significant for th really high climbs, the really beautiful high climbs. It is like an assault on the senses, the sharp and rough rocks, sometimes cutting your fingers, and mind you they do, and sheer height and the fear that comes along with it, the composure that we must muster within us to conquer the climb, and of course the view. Spectacular. It was to the extent that every time I came down from one of the high climbs, I seem to be a semi-high state, where my minds in a daze and my breathing deep and slow. To conclude this unachieveable form of description that I had intended, I shall use a metaphor. Climbing beautiful ( which sometimes means truly hard but is just, beautiful, yknow? ) natural routes, is like having sex on ecstacy, you'll never reach that peak again unless you do that same thing again. Oh, in case you were wondering, a drunk guy from US East told me that, he advised not to commit th same mistake as he did, HAHA.

All in all, it was truly a wonderful experience, and I would love to thank my fellow climbers, TJCCC, our teachers in charge and our dear coaches. AWESOMMMEEEE.

Checking In

The Bustle of KL

Our form of transport, apart from the taxis. Inefficient, haha

Nyamuk! Our first Destination.

A short trek through th wilderness

One of the 30m routes there, Diper Jaya.

Second Destination! Nanyang. This is closer to civilization.

Nothing life freshly cooked fried rice

Old Shoes Beware. Its just a slab of smooth rock. End of Story

Last Destination : Damai! Its a tourist destination

Some of us in the cave, Really BIG cave.

Lonely Black Boy

The view

First Night There, couldn't wait to get into my room, HAHA

TJCCC is defined by its eccentricity and energy, as shown above.

Formal.

The Last Picture of the Trip. Was at Camp5.

Ze coaches!

Plastic but still as great, haha

Can't wait for the next!